Combo breaker

Wasn't as hot today. AMAZING.

lead me out on the moonlit floor

"swing, swing, swing the spinning step;
you wear those shoes and i will wear that dress"

Kiss me - Sixpence none the Richer

Waking up for school every morning has been hard....

*alarm rings at 6:00* "dammit, another hot day and i have two classes today with no airconditioning." if i was smart enough I would invent my own fan or personal air conditioner that operated from the solar power because I enjoy being green like that.

Tomorrow I have to write an essay on the Andrew Mallard, a guy who got wrongfully convicted of murder. I am exposing the many holes in the criminal justice system of Western Australia and I feel like a detective. But since its so hot the novelty has dissipated somewhat and I am just left with sleepy eyes and a crappy introduction. Anyway I hope everything goes okay.

Loneliness. It's a p. bad feeling! When... oh my gah... quite a few of your friends have significant others it's quite easy to feel left behind. I think the reason why I am such a group hopper is because a majority of my friends have some significant dude in their lives and only want to spend a small portion of their time with me. It's like making a cake made up of little slices of different cakes - and in the end it's just a confusing hodgepodge of sugary, fatty stuff. Sometimes it's not all bad. You see everything. But there are times where I wish my cake was homogenous and tasty and big and good and complete with my friends all the time.

As Sean expressed earlier, he is at breaking point. And I think I might just be there too. Exams, drama, people changing, shit... This is going to be interesting!

Okay, I'm off to work more on my shitty intro that I'm pretty sure everyone else has already written. So good night for now, blog-san!

Likes of the day: dumb bogans on train, sleep, 90s music, beating Graham in big 2
Dislikes of the day: sleepiness, flirting

alones

You don’t have to force your smile for anyone else
It’s alright to smile only for yourself...

Alones - Aqua Timez

piss me off, and i will, seriously rip your -insert profanity-ing head off.

oh yeah, absolutely fantastic mood.

having training for something you volunteered to do, until 8pm, doesnt sit so well in my understanding. especially if it involves sitting in a crowded, tiny minuscule room with 30+ people.

short fuse, fyeahh.

in physics, you learn about tension, and how after a certain amount of stress, the string/chain/linking/whatever, will snap. well, how can that apply in real life eh? everyone can only take so much. but what happens when you reach that breaking point? will you suddenly stretch, and be able to take more? or will you just snap?

just snapping sounds so much easier. (plead on grounds of insanity yeahh.)

i really did think more of you. but i guess i was wrong (as usual). must you really?

im not sure how, really im not sure. how it came to be this way. was it my fault? yours? or both of ours? still, i cant be bothered worrying about it. it's pointless, it really is. don't even bother. (and i cant be bothered caring eitherrrrrr.)

the song Alones, by Aqua Timez strikes me as a really nice piece. nice rhythm and lyrics. and below is the vid haha.

[YouTube] Alones - Aqua Timez

still.

-shrug-

thoughts: -smash, shuttle disintegrates-

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Stating the obvious

So, it's pretty hot today huh?

nooo.

With one mistake, everything else will be lost
When your head is down, fold your hands
Spread your wings, you can fly...

Fly - Epik High

Don't even bother.

best words piece of advice. (hell yeahh)

today felt like a hell-of-a long day.

arrived at school at 7:50 (man so early) studied econs, went to see H.O.Y about leavers jackets.

was given the choice to do econs test tomorrow, but might as well have gotten it done today.

finished it in 2/3 of the time. just hoping i got most of it right lol. (honestly, i dont really care if i screwed up, so long as i passed.)

rest of day went by pretty fast-ish. (nothing else much really)

during after school chem tuition, since we missed 3-4 classes:

josh: you notice how the people always doing stuff out of class do phys, chem and maths 3AB.

chong: yes, that's because you are all such good students.

sean: ...or we just dont have lives.

(sadly enough, what i said applies to me.)

tomorrow till 8:30 pm, for Cadre training. (really, i have no clue why i even bother with these things.)

distractions are good. they take your mind off what really bothers you. hell, you could be down and blue, and all that is needed is someone to ask you to go find the new designs for leavers jackets. yeah, distractions are extremely useful. only thing that sucks, is when you've finished, and you're no longer distracted. it comes back, and hits you harder. guess it pretty much builds up into something that really packs a punch.

what does the term "friend" mean to you?

is it someone you trust, someone you get along with, or simply just someone you know? it's an extremely broad term, over-used i'd say.

but really, how do you tell your "friends" from everyone else? -shrug-

all A's next year seems possible, all that it would require is:

1. delete my msn/hotmail
2. permanently deactivating fb.
3. turning off my wireless modem.
4. downgrade to $5 a month for mobile.

and i seriously am considering these things. next year is your one shot at uni. the last thing you would want are distractions. (hmm, or i could just turn off the modem, the rest would follow though...mostly.)

alsoo, im not going to organise anything after exams. if you want to, do it yourself.(that is all)

i dont consider it worth the time/effort/preparation i put in. in the end, it becomes just another "outing" that you have a few memories of. what you fail to see is the hours/days/weeks of planning, put in for just a few hours. definitely not worth it on my part. i'd rather play piano.

i'll wrap it up here. organics test tomorrow, and i need a decent amount of sleep.

thoughts: "..."

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guten tag

你问我爱你有多深
我爱你有几分
我的情不移
我的爱不变
月亮代表我的心~
(you ask how deep my love is for you,
how much I love you,
but my feelings won't waver,
my love won't change,
the moon represents my heart)

konnichiwa guys ~ I am procrastinating like crazy right now. I've got 3 assessments on friday and one on thursday that is probably worth a shitty crazy amount. I should probably stop caring because the same people always get the best marks and it is just generally unfair. -___- but the sad thing is, I don't think I would be able to have a life outside of education :L school has backed me into a tiny corner and it won't let me out. I wish school wasn't such a stupid rollercoaster with people who seem bent on throwing you out of the rollercoaster and people who have such a strong centre of gravity that everything in the rollercoaster is attracted to them and you're alone on the side and you don't know what to do. I don't like being lonely.

I'm listening to 2NE1's new song "It Hurts" and I like it because I like music with a piano and a idk.. constant running beat? Also one of the chicks in the video has really awesome blue hair! I would want blue hair like that, but blue eyes vs. black eyebrows......... Anyway, I've been tired and sad for two weeks due to sleep deprivation due to bad dreams. I don't even know what I do at night anymore. It's really strange. Maybe I have an alter ego that acts while I sleep like the guy in Fight Club.

I guess... I guess... other than wanting to procrastinate I wanted to write this blog for the following reason - to remind myself, along with other people that one hug can make a difference. Maybe it doesn't seem like it when you gingerly wrap your arms around someone, but really, it does. It can make the difference between a happy person and a sad person or loving and hating; the difference between "nobody would care if I jumped off this bridge onto the highway" and "wow, life is okay after all!". It can mean so, so much to some people.

So next time you drop by McDonalds or KFC and see a lady crying, give her a hug. And next time you see a person who hates your chinky guts, hug them good. And next time you see that one person you really, really want to hug, just do it!

ok, ciao for now.

Likes of the week: Japanese children, friendly bus drivers, kittens, people who sleep on public transport, blue hair, no hair, headphones (still), Jack Johnson, Ikea

Dislikes of the week: SNSD's new song, furballs, people who pretend, people who think that the whole world revolves around them, males who steal my time with my friends...

connoisseur ice cream.

If we can’t be beside each other, I will just leave
Willing to do anything, now I will get going…

Heartache - Outsider ft. MC Sniper

It feels like such a long time since i've had the chance to update my blog haha. (well, two days?)

yes i missed you. (kinda.)

still, it's been pretty, umm interesting intense since then? (yeah im not really sure myself.)

saturday was spent at the state library. i like love our table. allows us to see when randoms walk up the stairs. perfect angle for graham and justin to stare at asian girls without drawing too much attention. it's also near to the chairs where the hobos/asians sleep. so it does become pretty funny, when all is quiet and you suddenly hear a snore.

note to self: drag an extra desk over next time.

we're rapidly running out of desk space, and when each person has 3-4 subjects they're trying to studying for, space becomes a luxury.

no Wesley guys this weekend haha. (justin probably scared them off... or was it aileen? hmmm.)

got lots of work done (surprisingly)

although i had a pretty bad headache. (why is the world so cruel to target asians with hayfever. urgh)

sunday, didnt wake up early for badminton. wayyyyyy too lazy, still r+r'ing after the tournament (even though i did barely anything), 13 horus hours of sleep felt so goodd. didnt wake up till 1.

then i realised i was screwed. (oh so very much)

spent pretty much the entire day on physics/physics/physics/physics/econs/chem/eng. (yep 4 x physics.)

what i'd give to control time (now im going to go off on a tangent).

1. during an exam or something, you could pause, go to the teachers laptop/desk. collect the test papers etc etc. then copy out the answers. (maybe that's how bryan does so well, hmmmmm)
2. if bored during class, pause time, then walk around, maybe take a walk to winthrop village and get some food. ("borrow" some food yeah? if time's paused, security cameras in theory are paused to..jks, im not that stingy)
3. fast forward through boring classes. (i.e english, religion and economics. especially english)
4. slow down moments you wish would last forever
5. travel back into time, and get a pet dinosaur can just imagine flying on a pterodactyl (except as ocallaghan argues, the atoms/molecules in the dinosaur are now in us, so by taking the dinosaur forward in time, you're destroying the possibility of using those molecules/atoms. yeah, i actually pay attention in physics)
6. fast-forward into time. (i wouldnt mind owning a Gundam -wide smile-, even a Knightmare Frame would be gooooddd)
7. most importantly, pausing time, so you can sleep for hours on end, and spend the rest of the "normal" time doing something productive. (i.e eating.)

Still, live would be so much more fun if i could control time (just a thought, if anyone has a way of controlling time, contact me immediately. thankyouu)

today we changed lockers, mine is.. -looks at arm- (oh it's still written on there), locker 782, is it M782? i dunno. all i know is that it's a bottom locker, and it's in a dark corner (urgh.) i found out today (twice), how awkward it is, when you go to your locker during class, as about half of the class to the right of your locker, with a wide open door, can see what you're doing. still, i cant complain. it's not as bad as the poor souls whose lockers are near the toilet windows (aha suckers.)

physics test i found "ok". my fears were brought up in a conversation later:

josh: how'd you find the test?
sean: i found it pretty ok, everyone else said it was hard.

josh: yeah, was pretty hard for me, you probably screwed up every single question then.

sean: yeah, dont remind me.

although some may argue, i "pwned" the test. i really dont think so. (wish i was as optimistic as you guys.)

lunch was rushed towards leavers jacket planning. not sure how the guy mixed me and josh up

i mean, come on. one of us is asian, skinny, wears glasses, a jumper and has black hair.

the other is white, tank, no glasses, no jumper and striking orange hair.

-shakes head-, probably needs to get his glasses checked again.

end of the day was spend coaching little kids for public speaking. omg, they're so loud. even though there were -counts- six of them? they made more noise than a year-11-economics-class-during-teachers-life-stories.

-sigh-

tomorrow, special minister of the eucharist training till 4:20, then library with chem teacher till 5 for test prep.

-profanity- far out, Cadre training goes from lunch till 8:30 pm on wednesday, and then the entire day on thursday.

man im so screwed for subjects.

then exams. damn, they're getting close.

still, there's light at the end of the tunnel (well there better be, or im calling in demolition teams.)

thoughts: leavers jackets arghh.

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