nooo.

With one mistake, everything else will be lost
When your head is down, fold your hands
Spread your wings, you can fly...

Fly - Epik High

Don't even bother.

best words piece of advice. (hell yeahh)

today felt like a hell-of-a long day.

arrived at school at 7:50 (man so early) studied econs, went to see H.O.Y about leavers jackets.

was given the choice to do econs test tomorrow, but might as well have gotten it done today.

finished it in 2/3 of the time. just hoping i got most of it right lol. (honestly, i dont really care if i screwed up, so long as i passed.)

rest of day went by pretty fast-ish. (nothing else much really)

during after school chem tuition, since we missed 3-4 classes:

josh: you notice how the people always doing stuff out of class do phys, chem and maths 3AB.

chong: yes, that's because you are all such good students.

sean: ...or we just dont have lives.

(sadly enough, what i said applies to me.)

tomorrow till 8:30 pm, for Cadre training. (really, i have no clue why i even bother with these things.)

distractions are good. they take your mind off what really bothers you. hell, you could be down and blue, and all that is needed is someone to ask you to go find the new designs for leavers jackets. yeah, distractions are extremely useful. only thing that sucks, is when you've finished, and you're no longer distracted. it comes back, and hits you harder. guess it pretty much builds up into something that really packs a punch.

what does the term "friend" mean to you?

is it someone you trust, someone you get along with, or simply just someone you know? it's an extremely broad term, over-used i'd say.

but really, how do you tell your "friends" from everyone else? -shrug-

all A's next year seems possible, all that it would require is:

1. delete my msn/hotmail
2. permanently deactivating fb.
3. turning off my wireless modem.
4. downgrade to $5 a month for mobile.

and i seriously am considering these things. next year is your one shot at uni. the last thing you would want are distractions. (hmm, or i could just turn off the modem, the rest would follow though...mostly.)

alsoo, im not going to organise anything after exams. if you want to, do it yourself.(that is all)

i dont consider it worth the time/effort/preparation i put in. in the end, it becomes just another "outing" that you have a few memories of. what you fail to see is the hours/days/weeks of planning, put in for just a few hours. definitely not worth it on my part. i'd rather play piano.

i'll wrap it up here. organics test tomorrow, and i need a decent amount of sleep.

thoughts: "..."

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