~ warm fuzzy challenge continued

"so freak out if you want to, and i'll still be here

don't call me for years and when you do;

yeah i'll still be here~

and i'm not saying the effort is a waste of time

but i just love you for the things you couldn't change but you've tried"

- learn to live with what you are (ben folds)

hey y'all, it's big ol' obnoxious me again! this time with another part of the warm fuzzy challenge :3

i'm sitting here next to my maths book wanting to go to sleep but thinking of you and the "date" we had today. (i know you're probably never going to read this and this will probably be misconstrued but heck, this is what the warm fuzzy challenge is for) it was fun and the icey ice was good and i liked our d&m (first proper one i've had in ages!)

i'm glad you've come clean with the things you've been going through and don't feel so much of the pain anymore. it seems that from hereon everything will be better for you and your gap year sounds really amazing so hopefully things will just get better and better because that's what you deserve, gurrrrl.

when i heard those things it was hard to judge you, because you really are such a beautiful, amazing person and it was way difficult to cage you in society's standards and look down on you that way. i guess i hope you know that everyone else probably finds it hard to judge you too.

everyone loves you! who could not love dat smyle and dose lusciouz legsz.

you're the most independent person i know and i could really learn a thing or two from you.

you've overcome so much and .. although it's probably not my place to say anything, i'm proud of you.

i'm disappointed at stevie j for not putting us in any classes together because i could have done with a lil' more sunshine, good advice and balance in my life.

but in sum,

you're so wonderful. i'll always be here for you - you don't have to tell me anything because that doesn'tt matter. i don't think i've ever had the urge to judge you so i want you to know that i probably never will unless you do something ridiculous like push me onto a highway or kill my cat or something (which you won't). you have an incredibly rounded world view that i admire so much. there's hope for the future and some of it lies in you fo' sho'.

you're beautiful <3