warm fuzzy challenge

Ni hao guys!

I'm proud to announce the blog's inaugural warm fuzzy challenge!~~

Each day each of us will (try to - maybe not every day but this will happen for a while) post an anonymous warm fuzzy to someone close to us.

Inaugural warm fuzzy:

Dear x,

Thank you for all the g-times we've had together. Even though you may not talk much to me and just give me "what the farmer are you doing, biatch" looks all the time I think we still have a good loving relationship going on underneath.

I like how you're always looking out for people, never violating the bro-code and letting me pinch your cheeks.

You're really intelligent and sometimes I don't understand why you want to be even more intelligent. I mean being number one is great but you're already number one to so many people. You don't need to prove yourself. 100% doesn't mean 100% good or 100% happy.

I respect so much about you - the fact that you mostly live your life for others is just an amazing trait of yours. You would be destined for buddhahood if you didn't focus so much on your studies.

Although the pressure on you is a large weight, I hope you know that there are so many people eager to share the load and if you didn't keep it in I think you'd find so many people willing to surround you with loving kindness.

I still feel bad about the chemistry incident earlier in the year. You can sit next to her if you like. In retrospect trying to make you sit next to me was wrong and you should be able to sit next to her if you want to. You're one of my best friends and that means I should accept you regardless of your choice of seating.

I like it when you smile. It suits you. So keep doing it yeah?

You're an amazing amazing person who I won't forget.

Love always,

Lillian

tuna pasta bake.

I think I’ll go crazy,
I think maybe I’m exhausted (why?)
No, I think I’m fed up
It’s dull already, tedious...

Tonight - Big Bang (still think Haru Haru > Tonight)

After a considerable productivity-questionable day (whoah, big words). i'm finally settling down to continue working on physics and maths.

Sandra and i got quite a bit of work done...till Josh came (he took up the entire table...with his books), we still did work, but hey, we realized we work much better at the library.

lunch was good, home made tuna pasta bake, which was pretty impressive, considering how we were planning on just eating instant noodles.

for those who havent noticed, there've been um, a few changes to the blog, most namely the layout, which i changed...2 nights ago? since i was pretty very bored.

secondly, the quote at the top is no longer a madman one, rather one of pride.

hey, just felt like a bit of change.

not much else to say, just procrastinating before i get stuck into start physics.

hands up if you think you're screwed for the circular motion component of the test.

-waves hand frantically-

yeah, i'm a real optimist.

thoughts: haha.

-10 < 0 < 10

80/20

paper aeroplane.

since it's the long weekend, i feel like i ought to finally contribute to the blog once again. i woke up like an hour ago even though i set my alarm for 8 to do so some hardcore study but i guess that won't be happening for the rest of the day.. right now i'm eating mi goreng and waiting for gossip girl to load and checking my phone balance and since i'm running out of interesting deetz of my life, i'll follow sean and lilly's lead and send some ambiguous shout outs.

- even though we're only starting to get to know each other properly, you are so fun to talk to and laugh and share music with :3 i think you could be a really close friend and a person i'll depend on more. (toobad4u)

- sometimes your 'friendliness' and 'sweetness' makes me extremely uncomfortable.
 
- high school musical lol what a loser

- i feel like i'm a burden every time i talk to you

-  even though we were thrown to opposing 'sides', it didn't change us at all. luv ya bitch

i'm going to go watch gossip girl now and be really unproductive!
farewell :3

mmm.

Just paint the picture of a perfect place
They got it better than what anyone's told you
They'll be the King of Hearts, and you're the Queen of Spades
Then we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers

All The Right Moves - One Republic

Damn gundam video isnt loading properly..

well, hello there.

to be honest, i'm not too sure about what i want to can post, so maybe i'll just stick with something diplomatic.

woke up at 10, one of the best things i've done in a while a long time. showered, changed and took the bus to the station.

and this is when you realize how cr*p transperth is -sigh-

rippa subs > real bacon burger, sorry justin.

study was so-so, got enough a reasonable amount of stuff done. i think.

-3 hours later-

just finished Gundam 00, good movie.

well, that summarizes up my post. an interesting one at that.

(sarcasm)

thoughts: -keeps to self-

-10 < -9 < 10

80/20

it goes on and on and on.

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Well, hello there.
it's been a while since i've done a post. (more than "a while" i guess...)
and i guess it's time, ahaha (usually only do posts when something's wrong)
heaps has been on my mind recently, and i just i need to let off a bit of steam (ok, maybe more than a bit)
really should invest in a punching bag yeah? (know where i can get one cheap?)

school. is. hell. at one point in time, i enjoyed what school would be like, but then this year, you realise you have almost a meeting each recess and lunch, and you realise that you miss seeing friends (sorry mashima). you begin to question yourself, "why do you do so much shit?" and yeah, i guess that's when you remember the only reason you bog yourself down with work is so you dont think about other stuff.

living off 5 hours or less of sleep a day isnt pretty. i'll say that. makes it even worse, when you're recovering from a cold, and you know rest is the best thing possible. -sigh- oh how much i value sleep. long weekend coming up, and i dunno, if i can keep my mind blank for long enough, hopefully i'll catch up on 2 weeks sleep.

note(s) to self: vinnies, get more cordial, prepare a poster for sale of water/cordial
public speaking, finish off that speech on something you're passionate about, look at lesson plan for next time, revise over previous competition speech to show.
mock trials, soak in the glorious victory...for now. begin reading new case materials, and look over team selection.
prefect, remember to check about various proposals scattered around the place, and begin finishing up on mints and baking day proposal


schoolwork:
religion, finish off essay in class
maths, study shitloads for upcoming test on differentiation and applic.
english, read novel, begin taking notes on documentary, keep journal up to date with responses
economics, continue reading notes over AE and stuff, 67% isnt good enough (no im not crashing, for those who are wondering)
physics, highlight and annotate projectile motion and circular motion book, make sure to finish dot point, heineman and stawa exercises, read ahead for gravity and satellites
chemistry, chapter summaries for equilibrium and rates of reaction, practice questions, and make sure pract book is up to date (step 1, find pract book)


-headdesk- i wish i was dumb.
all of this crap, just to take my mind off things. but hey, what happens when all of this piles up? and things only become worse? is it the equivalent of a mental/emotional wage price spiral?
-shakes head- i probably just need sleep.

the blog still lives, lilly. it'll be used quite a bit from now on i guess haha.
but hey, im still alive (barely), and im sure so are the other contributors.

and just a few ambiguous things i want to say:

• you're dead to me, really you are, and i see no point in ever talking to you ever again.
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• it isnt easy to forget what you did, it's even harder to forgive you -shrug- it only took a bit for you to destroy those years of trust. 
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• you'll live, if not there'll be the rest of us to make sure you do, even if it takes a long time.
• 
  
• i'm sorry, my parents were pissed that day
• 
  
• i dont mean to take it out on you, it's just that im not sure if i can trust you.
• 
  
• behind all those smiles, i know you're enjoying it, and rubbing it in. so gtfo of my life. go enjoy it with the other one if you really want to. so yeah, just gtfo.
• 
  
• i dont know what i'd do without you. even though i've only known you for a bit, you really are an amazing friend, someone i can always rely on.
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• you too, you're an amazing friend, someone i know who gives valid opinions, and someone i know i can trust my life with.

long weekend coming up soon, a nice break from everything i guess. man. i really want to sleep now, but my religion essay's being a b*tch and not letting me wrap up how consecrated religious search for meaning in life.

ladies and gentlemen, that's me for now.
i'll update if i feel i need to.

thoughts: i wont forget.
-10 < -7 < 10
60/40, 30/70
i dont ever want it to reach 51/49.

what the farmer

"even though you need a golden calculator to divide
the time it took inside and realise
that real guys go for real down to Mars girls, yeah!"

Hey guys. I'm here looking at my OT Lee mathematics 3C/D book and lamenting the death of this blog and the metaphorical death of its creators. It's been really hot today, tensions have been running high and I feel like I'm Czechoslovakia in 1939 (dat history knowledge), getting my neutrality signed away the events of the day.

It's nearly the day of the ball and sometimes I wonder if every girl/guy goes through the thoroughly confusing, stressful and friendship severing experience that is organising tables, limos and trying to keep tensions low. Of course it's not as if I've been the most stressed out - but as an outside observer... it's incredibly sad and painful to watch.

Not to mention the tests, the essays and my ever-failing eyesight.......

I'm not saying that we should look upon the past with rose coloured glasses - for last year and the years before were also full of drama. I just wish that everyone would take it a little easier and enjoy what's left of this year - instead of worrying or changing themselves (hence causing much drama and sadness).

I love all you guys. I love all the things you've done for me. I love the way you try so hard at everything. Sometimes it's too much though.

Some personal anonymous shout outs (don't even try to guess):

- you can't fight anger with anger and you can't fight stress with more study

- why are you so oblivious? quit ingratiating yourself with other people and losing all the characteristics we cherish you for. and maybe looking back to see who's feelings you've hurt instead of shagging up to some people would be nice.

- talk to me ;__;

- fark you!

anyway :3 hope things get sorted by the time someone reads this. maths and ts eliot are eagerly awaiting my attention.

<3

i'm backk.

We are Corpus Christi,

Lord be our guide,

The spirit of Corpus Christi,

The body of Chriiiiiiiissssssstttttttttt~

School Anthem. (god,  it's already in my head.)

Two days into school.

and already i feel dead. (well, for the most part.)

Well, backtrack a bit. my last post was on the day after i arrived back from China (if i remember correct...i'm too lazy to go back and read and check). and uhh, to be honest, i cant remember that much since then. well i guess there's been...-thinks- aus day at Bryan's...Chris' birthday...a semi-working library study session?...yeah...im not thinking that far back right now. all of those days were lots of fun. and the thing i mist miss the most about the holidays. the hours of sleep.

house activity day yesterdayy, was good to see everyone again, and i realised how much taller Arthur, Carl and Adam had grown -looks down-. i miss being considered "tall" hahaha. woo, de vialar won the games at the beginning..(yeah, im losing my enthusiasm..) -skips to next part-

-blah blah blah blah-

blazers look screwed up. it now looks like a clown suit -sigh-. workmanship on the lining looked really dodgy..i'll post a picture up if i can be bothered (probably not). some of the house shirts look pretty ok, except the mackillop one?

"we're not using the name "sky blue" for our house"

"why?"

"we're changing it to poofta blue"

yeah, that one looks dodgy. assembly was so damn hot. 1400 people packed into a gym, on a hot summer day. fmlll. and there was no breeze. everyone started applauding and celebrating when the assembly was concluded.

umm, what else is there.. oh yeah, subjects. i'm happy with the ones i'm in, and yeah. they're all pretty good. extremely happy i get ocallaghan and ramsey for physics and chem (respectively). so yeah, all gooddd.

turns out the badminton tournament may be during our retreat.. fffffffffff- (i'll check the dates again la.)

there's not much more im thinking of adding on right now i guess. tomorrow and saturday will be filled with lots of year 7's, and scaring their year 11 quest leaders -cheesy grin-.

so yeahh. bye?

thoughts: ehh.

-10 < 3 < 10

99.5/0.5