a virtual defibrillator

I remember watching the clock switching its display to 12:01 AM in Singapore, making the year 2012. As I turned away to take a nice shower to help me forget about the existence of equatorial humidity for five minutes, I reflected on what this year was going to bring: university life, work and maybe even a new me. I don't know what exactly I was looking for in those 4 numbers that represented the 2012th year of the Gregorian calendar. A continuation of the Taiwan craziness I'd experienced in December of 2011? Renewed intelligence? Self actualisation?

Needless to say, I accomplished none of those things. I've had my feelings stomped on numerous times in the past four months, been bombarded with every pointless assignment possible, discovered that not everyone is going to stay the same as they were when you first knew them and said numerous goodbyes.

However, I'm slowly working my way up Maslow's needs hierarchy; eradicating my old fears and recreating who I am. Meeting new people every day is fun, even though every day has the propensity to descend into bitchiness and stupidity. I've bumped into poles and trees; walked into the men's toilets and said more awkward things that I can remember, but those are just the stuff of anecdotes to share when bored.

2012, we have a love-hate relationship but I wouldn't trade the experiences I've had so far in your temporal warmth for the world.

fellow procrastinators:

since you're most likely hiding away from more wace exams, you might as well watch this!
do it.

stalk

it seems, despite my increasing yet ever-futile attempts to control my internet stalker instincts, i end up doing it anyway. even in the heat of WACE, i still feel an uncontrollable inclination to stalk. whether it be k-pop stars (congrats on getting tickets to see SNSD by the way sean) or john green or freakin dmitri medvedev - god bless his russian soul. i'm hooked on seeing if horoscope profiles match my friends' personality and sometimes, they uncannily do. i often look at myself in the mirror telling myself "you can do it! you can get through this hellish period in your life without breaking down and acquiring some sort of psychosis" but then i feel sick just by looking at my face and sleep for a while.

WHERE IS MY CONCENTRATION.

o gods of wace, why have ye forsaken me so ;__;

will hopefully find the inspiration to write a less boring post in the next few days.

<3

“Reading with an eye toward metaphor allows us to become the person we’re reading about while reading about them. That’s why there are symbols in books and why your English teacher deserves your attention. Ultimately, it doesn’t matter if the author intended a symbol to be there because the job of reading is not to understand the author’s intent. The job of reading is to use stories as a way into seeing other people as we see ourselves, and when we do that, we can look out at the world and see a giant, endless set of beautiful variations of pizzas.”

John Green

i'll be back

just finished my harrowing set of orals asjdhgksdjghskdghslkdg so hazukashii.

"do you want to get married?"

"i don't know"

"do you want to continue japanese?"

"i don't know'

"uhm.. today i'm going to talk about how i'm going to turn into an independent adult.." ffffffffffuk

FMLLLLLLLLLLLL AIYAHHHHHHHHHHH no amount of words can express my regret and sadness.

it hasn't hit me that i'm leaving high school. the last day was too hot and i felt too sick to have the full truth bang it over my head that i'm going to have to say goodbye to so many fantastic people. but i'm chill - the people i'm meant to be with will be with me ~ good consolation yoO0o0

exam stress is making me super depressed and i just feel like typing in a weird retarded way. back to 9 hour study regime tomorrow~ gotta study hard y0 niggazzzzzzz.

ironic how the elaborate successful futures i fabricate in oral exams will never come alive.

gerascophobia.

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, 
we take a little of each other everywhere."

i've been looking through old things recently (more procrasticleaning).

old cards, old letters, old photos, old blog posts, old chat logs, old text messages, old songs, old memories, old promises, old feelings. probably because friday was the last day of high school and the feeling of holy-shit-it's-over has completely washed over me. it felt extremely final, saying farewell to five incredible years and so many amazing people.

i already miss my disgusting locker and the lunch spot on the oval and playing bubble trouble during photography and $1 hash browns and cruiser pies and my hilaro teachers and intense debates in politics & law and playing big two during maths and watching cold war videos and drinking milo during lit and class in jokes and playing bench ball and going bowling as 'recreation' and using the privilege pass and thinking of excuses and sleeping on the refectory couches and the speed of the library printer and rare lunch time picnics and assemblies in the auditorium and walking past the embarrassing centenary photograph and not studying during study periods. i miss all of this and more.

i'm only realising now that i'm not ready to say goodbye.

Didaskaleinophobia.

Didaskaleinophobia - the fear of going to school

thought I'd write a somewhat more lighthearted post, considering how people are wanting to break down, crawl into a corner and imagine storm clouds hanging above them (or maybe that's just me)


anyways, here are some subject pick up lines I thought were good, and found whilst procrastinating
(disclaimer: I will not be held responsible for any injuries or deaths occurring from the recitation of these jokes in public, or private for that matter.)


Chemistry
"You are so attractive, I cannot help but form hydrogen bonds with you"
"Will a little more alcohol catalyze this reaction?"
"I'm more attracted to you than F is to an electron"
"Me and you would undergo a more energetic reaction than potassium and water"
"If only you and I could form a redox cell, the potential between us would be mighty high"
"If I could form any compound, I would make uranium iodide, so I could put U and I together"
"I'm a conjugate acid, you are a conjugate base. Let's hook up and create conjugate pairs"
"Do you wanna join functional groups with me, and let me release a water molecule?"
"What does it take to get over your activation barrier?"
"My favourite attractive forces is van de Waals forces. Can you feel it? I will sit closer if you can't"
"I'm a chemistry student, I do it on the table periodically"
"If you let me work hard enough, I can give you a dipole moment"
"Maybe later we can go over to my place and titrate until you reach your end point"




Physics
"What do you say we use my lever to shift your center of mass?"
"I might be a physics major, but I'm no Bohr in bed"
"Your eyes have a perfect wavelength of 563.4 nm"
"What's your resonant frequency?"
"Top quark or bottom quark?"
"You're more special than relativity"
"Like the ideal vacuum, you're the only thing in my universe"
"Let's exchange fermions!" (..shouldnt it be gluons..?)
"You and Me = Grand Unification"
"In my bed, it's perpetual motion all night long" (reminds me of the Big Bang Theory Episode)
"The input voltage of my amplifier will take your frequency to new heights"
"I know all about superpositioning"
"How about if I lepton you later?"
"The direction fields of my heart all point to you"
"Your hotness is the only reason we can't reach absolute zero"
"You're a moving electric charge, and I'm a moving magnetic charge...Wanna flux?"
"It's not the length of the vector that counts, it's how you apply it"
"You're an electromagnetic wave, and I'm an electron. Together, you excite me to another level" [Aaron]


Maths
"I wish I was your derivative, so I could lie tangent to your curves"
"I wish I was your integral, so I could be the area under your curves"
"Hey, what's your sine?"
"Hey , baby want to squeeze my theorem while I poly your nomial?"
"...nice asymptote"
"I don't know if you're in my range, but I'd sure like to take you back to my domain"
"You are the solution to my system of linear equations"
"I'll take you to the limit as x approaches infinity"
"If I were a function, you would be my asymptote - I always tend towards you"
"Honey, you're sweeter than pi"
"My love for you is like an asymptotic function, it has no limit"
"When I try to calculate my love for you, the calculator reads 'Error - Unreal number'"
"In Euclidean geometry, two parallel lines never touch... let's go back to my place and study some non-Euclidean geometry"
"Let's make love like pi; irrational and never ending"
"We've been differentiating for too long, lets sum it up and integrate"
"You must be absolute, because every time you're around me, I feel positive"
"I'll be the naked singularity. You be the black hole"



Economics
"Why don't you remove those barriers to imports? It will ease my inflation and the benefits will trickle down"
"What do you say I eliminate some dead weight loss and add to your consumer surplus?"
"You won't find any elasticity with my demand, cause there are no substitutes"
"It's ok... I'm a price taker"
"I'm a pure public good, you can free-ride on me any time you want"
"We're like monopolistic competition... all we care about is the short run"
"Our society is underproducing... but I'm sure if we hooked up we'd achieve an efficient allocation of resources"
"My fiscal policy is all about contributing to your private sector"
"Your industry shows promise... time for my  firm to break the barrier of entry"
"Did you know, my private sector is now open for business"
"If you wanna stop the downturn, stimulate my package for growth, and then invest in my private sector"
"Because you are such a positive externality, we may need to implement immediate stimulus measures"
"Every time I see you, you remind me of high inflationary pressures... my interest rates keep increasing at every meeting"
"I can tell you're in a boom, my interest rates keep on rising"
"When it comes to you, my demand curve slopes upwards"
"Do you have a job? Because I thought we could enjoy some frictional unemployment together"
"Are you a Keynesian? Cause you sure make my monetary policy inflate"
"You've got the loveliest supply curves I've ever seen"
"If you want to invite your friend, perhaps we could explore multilateralism"
"Just to let you know, I'm about to nationalize you, so your assets won't be private for much longer"
"You must be operating at full allocative efficiency, because you know just where to put your goods and services"
"There are no diminishing returns with you"
"I love you, ceteris paribus"
"Don't worry baby, I'm implementing entry barriers to prevent infant industries entering the market"


Religion
"Now I know why Soloman had 700 wives, because he never met you"
"You float my ark"
"My spiritual gift is my good looks... it lifts peoples spirits"
"I used to believe in natural theology, but since I met you, I've converted to divine revelation"
"How many times do I have to walk around you to make you fall for me?"
"Unfortunately, I cant perform miracles and I've only got enough bread and fish for two people"
"I'm a Proverbs 32 kind of guy, and you're a Proverbs 31 kind of woman..."
"I would leave 99 sheep to come and find you... and then I would carry you home joyfully on my shoulder"
"You make the Queen of Sheba look like a hobo"
"Do you need prayer? Cause I'm certainly willing to lay my hands on you"
"Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?"
"Is it a sin that you stole my heart?"
"Do you think 'ask, and it shall be given to you' is to be taken literally?"
"I practice the mission of "love one another" to the fullest extent"
"How do feel about the passage that says, 'it is more blessed to give than to receive'?"
"I didn't know angels flew this low"
"If Eve was tempted by an apple, then you must be my fruit"
"The Word says 'Give drink to those who are thirsty, and feed the hungry'... how about dinner tonight?"




so manyyy. but they were worth the time finding ahaha.