i'm going to break down these walls i've built around myself.

meant to post this yesterday night but didn't for an unknown idiotic reason; anyway just shout outz :3

#1: it kinda feels like the old times hanging out with you now, and it's making me realise how great it is when we're all together in that 'original' little group. we get along so easily, everything just feels like it should. when i'm with you three it's like being around family and i don't think it can get any better than that <333333333

#2: i don't know what to do when you're sad because you never tell me what's up. i really want to help you and make you feel better...but it's extremely hard when you close everyone off. you should know that you could trust me with anything and it's not a bad thing to let someone in once in a while.
 

#3: i miss you and idk how to stop.
 

#4: we have so many fights, ones that i love and other ones like this current tension filled silence that i can't handle. (i can't handle the fight NOT YOU ♥) when i have a fight with you, it automatically turns into a bad day - even if school finished early and i bought some awesome ukulele strings, everything turns to be about you. and i end up just waiting. waiting for you to say the first word or waiting for you to calm your farm or waiting to see if yo minging ass has even realised that i'm ignoring you. you mean a lot to me too, i wish that you'd understand i have legit reasons to be a crazy bitch about certain matters & just trust me. but i'm apologising & promising that i'll explain. i'm only hurt that you let me try to sleep in such a sad state (fukyeah alliteration). leaving me to stay up & argue with myself whether i should be the one to spend all my credz and fix things. 

because when things are broken with us, everything else feels shattered too.