Scarecrow.

A day without you is too long. 
I pray that I may please forget you (that’s a lie).Lies - Big Bang

End of another day. (damn they go fast.)

one day closer to end of year, and exams (oh god).

"i'm tired, yet i dont want to sleep.

angry, yet not wanting to let it go.

giving up, yet still hoping."

3/5 periods today was spent having fun setting up in the gym. (who knew there were so many chairs.) mostly involved moving chairs back and forth, miscommunication making it all the more great. (when you have 20+ people contributing ideas, it isnt exactly neat.)

meh, doesnt matter, it's over.

graduation assembly period two was ok-ish. a bit lots of music, some lots of cheering. hard to believe it'll be us in just a years time. (man i feel oldd.)

the graduation mass just finished about 2 hours ago. felt pretty long, then again, maybe i wasnt really that focused on it.

physics vectors test was ok i guess. but i've reached the point where i dont really care anymore (yeah im gonna be screwed this time next year.) but hey, it is pretty boring. (then again, most things are, except...)

badminton tournament tomorroww, but i dunno. doesnt seem that exciting. need to wake up early to get to Kingsway, but it'll be ok after that (i hope). 3 events, singles, doubles and mixed doubles (and i have no idea who my partners are at all.) my best chance probably is at singles, unless there's some pro player that was placed in the wrong division. (P(pro player) = 0.95)

now, for my own, self deluding rant. (yes i've had enough.)

i hate it, so goddamn much. formalities really suck a whole lot. if you dont mean it, dont even bother trying. is this really who you are? or was i just lied to all along. it hurts, a whole lot. you still mean a lot to me, but slowly its slipping away. would i be happier if i didnt see you? i dont know, maybe. but the remainder of me says never to think that. i really was an idiot for ever wishing that.

went to library after school today, picked up 3 books. cant remember them, except Scarecrow (hence title of post). i really enjoy Reilly's books, fast paced and descriptive. bit confusing at times, but re-reading it makes it much more fun. (dont think i'll be getting much sleep tonight loll)

summing up, before i leave: this is pretty screwed. that is all.

thoughts: annoy me, and i will rip your -insert profanity-ing head off. kthxbai.

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