why am i so forgettable? ;__;

.....

GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS EVERYONE!

get your red bull on 'cause i'm ready

you briefly glance at a group of girls; nod at the first's nice ass, wipe the drool off your mouth and then surreptitiously whisper "drop it like it's hot" upon seeing the second's pretty face, give an approving look to the all round hot one and then, an another approving look at the fourth, and at the fifth, think "what the shit is that one doing there?"

you're all familiar to this scenario, amirite?

the things i would do in this scenario:

1. try my best to see the hot-to-trot features of the fourth one. a good personality perhaps? nice smile? maybe sxc hair that you would have to look twice at to fully appreciate.

2. stop looking. it's damn depressing.

3. sympathise?

what would you do?

this issue probably just bothers me because i know the feeling myself: the niggling feeling of "i'm sorry for being so disgusting and ruining it" that lingers in the mind. but it kind of helps to know that sometimes those chix are brimming with self confidence, so it's therefore okay.

soz for ranting (but i guess this is what the blog is for, rite?)

thank you for an amazing night last night funbunnaz! best night i've had in a while.

wooooooh getting ready for hxc study for the weekend!

<3

anonymous shout outs:

- gtfo. you duh invade my personal space.

- thank you so much. i don't even know you but thank you. you unknowingly saved me from so much shiet. :3

retreat retreat retreattt.

three days, no school.
(not sure if that's good or bad though)

and i'm cutting down loads on msn (hurts so much though), but means i get more study done -sigh-

ah well.. RETREAT (...the next three days are going to be retribution for year 11 ahah)

bow chicka wow wow

the week has felt like it's just dragged on and on because everything is piling up and stressing me out already *___* but hopefully things will get better since the recent days have seriously just been a string of fml moments like my hellz indie watch breaking, precious ot lee maths book damaged due to a water bottle leak, having another random ass hobo yelling YEAAAAAAH GURL COME OVER HERE AND TALK TO MEEEEEEEEE at the bus station, and being denied a library card for the 895947557757th time. anyway after that rant, shout outz here we go: 

• i know we're drifting but i love you so muuuch. i'm okay with you just filling me in on everything time to time - as long as you don't forget about me completely (i'm putting you first so you don't get paranoid ilybbz)
• just gtfo seriously
• i la la laaaava you. you've really stuck by me even when i get all FRIENDSHIP OVER WHY ARE YOU EVEN TALKING TO ME?! ♥ you always stay even when i try to push you away in my moments of rage and i don't take anything for granted ! i don't have to explain all my dramaz to you because you immediately make me feel happier and better about everything. ILYITF
• a different gurl every day, dayum playa!

we wanna go rocka rocka rocka

I wake up every evening with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place
And you're still probably working at a nine to five pace
I wonder how bad that tastes
Gives You Hell - The All American Rejects

Two days into term. and really i do already feel like giving up -sigh-
woo! retreat though. but at its passing, you'll realize that it was a bad idea. especially at this time of the year (fuuu-)

MY PS2 IS FIXEDDDD. -strokes affectionately- forgotten how long it's  been since i last used it ahaha.

Failing a test hits really hard -emphasis on really-
and a chem score of 48 isn't really helping my distasteful (acids are sour, geddit?) view towards chemistry.
on the upside, english and physics went pretty reasonably well ahah.

my goal for this term: to remain sane. (well, not become any more worse)
yes it's true, we need to knuckle down and study for mid year exams.
but hey,
better not to burn out before-hand.
-reads physics: magnetism- -dizzy-

god, really now? of all times. just try to act a bit more mature at least.
(not that i can say much, i guess.)

retreat in under a week! (fish should be with us -sigh-)

bye
(slowly learning to sleep early. and not use msn)

interactive history study

Nov 1969 - 26 May 1972: SALT I

26 May 1972: ABM treaty signed (by Brezhnev and Nixon)

21 Dec 1972: Basic treaty between FDR and DDR signed

30 Jul 1975 - 1 1975: Helsinki Summit

Nov 1972 - Jun 1979: SALT II

18 Jun 1979: SALT II treaty signed

~~~~~ <=8

my turf

this week has been p. mindblowing! for year 12 it's kind of weird that there's a perennial sense of change. i thought it would just be study, study, study but no: it's drama, segregation and discovering who you and your friends truly are.

UMAT, exams and WACE exams are steadily approaching and everything is as freaking intense as the heat used in the haber process for manufacturing ammonia (which isn't very hot by commercial sense but if you stepped into a 300 degrees celsius combustion chamber you'd probably die - therefore intense); but there seem to be so many other things that matter more.

i guess all i wanted to say is just.. stop! just stop, relax, and take it easy. i can't really talk since i'm probably going to be freaking out over the assessments in the next two weeks but i know everything is going to be okay no matter what happens.

on a separate note...

SO EXCITED TO SEE THE BALLET <3 i am still of the opinion that the funbunners are the most amazing group of people ever and i have so much <3 for everything funbun related rite now (and probs 4evs aye)

important events coming up:

13 May: Dillon's birthday!

24 May: Wilson's birthday!

27 June: UMAT

30 May - 10 June: exams ;__;

gl for assessments everyone! don't stress out too much! and don't party too hard~