♥♥.Breakeven.♥♥ + Challenge 8 and 9 :) = this blogpost

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me is always you?

and

What am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?

...I'm falling to pieces...

~Breakeven~

I fall silent as I watch him walk away with my torn heart in his hands. I feel the hot tears well up in my eyes and the deep throbbing pain of my now empty chest escalate to unbearable heights

...I will not complain...

...I will bear this agony alone...

...if he will come back to me...

EPSH!!! Bullshit. As if I'd fucking wait in pain for an asshole to return after breaking my heart! If anything, I'd probably be waiting in anticipation for him to come back so I can kick his sorry arse :) Seriously girls, wouldn't you do the same?

Aha, you must all think that the person behind this computer screen is I'm some fail cynical fat man who can't find love huh? To all those thinking this, first of all: would a pessimistic MAN seriously write in purple? Second of all, I'm a hopeless romantic♥... who just happens to be a pedantic feminist. I know, I know. A sappy feminist? Doesn't make sense right? How about we just simplify it and say, I'm all about girl power♥ GO POWERPUFFS (inside joke :] thumbs up if you get this HAHA)

Ok, back to the scenario: girl meets boy. Boy meets girl. Girl falls madly in love and the boy is her whole world... until he rips out her heart, throws it on the ground, stomps on it, spits on it, shits on it and pees on it until theres literally nothing left but a pile of greenbluebrownblack shit!!!

After this, the girl cries; goes through depression; gets help from her BFF's and eats a whole lotta ice cream until she's back on her feet again... only for a little while... because the next thing you know...the girl's after that badass dude again! SERIOUSLY!? WHAT IS WITH US GIRLS AND FALLING FOR BADASS GUYS? Is it because of their obvious hunky bufness? Or is it because we think that we can change them, and that they'll love us for it? Ugh. Stupidstupid to-die-for good looks... Anyways, the point is, I LOVE ROMANCE and sex and relationships and all the heebie jeebies involved with it but I get sooooo pissed off at the fact that when relationships end, us girls can't help but be emotional! It totally makes us vulnerable and weak (so not my thing) and an easy fuck target for guys coz for some reason, they just always know when a girl "needs someone to lean on".

Ugh. I'm ranting aren't I?

All I want to really say is: Girls, its time to be STRONG. We're not in the olden days anymore where we have to wait for our knight in shining armour♥ Now, don't get me wrong, I'd love my own knight in shining armour♥ but I'd like a geniuine one... not a fake one (like zac efron)... or a horny one (like russel brand)...

Oh by the way, if you're reading this, just note that what I've talked about refers to no-one in particular! OK!? So those of you getting ideas on how "this" might be "you"... well its not... I just heard that stupid song by The Script and it spurred something in me! HAHA.

But seriously... what is it about Badass guys that makes them so attractive? (Well, for me anyways 0_0... and also for that girl in grease, and elena gilbert, and hannah from pretty little liars...) What exactly do we find striking in guys? What make us want them... like a piece of cookies-and-ice cream on a hot summers day (yum)? Is it their amazingly gorgeous eyes? Their super hunky muscles? What?!

....and this leads us to Challenge 8 of Sean's 10 day blogging challenge...

3 Things Boys Do That I Love♥

1.) Hug me/ hold my hand when I'm scared

2.) They're nice to everyone and treat most with respect... but are still able to single us out and make us feel special :)

3.) They dont stomp, spit, shit and pee on my heart :) AHAHA jokesjokes... Hmm, well...I really like it when guys aren't afraid to show how they feel... And when they still have the guts to hug their mum/dad or say that they love their parents :) Is that weird? I reckon its a reflection of how everlasting their love is♥.

Challenge 9: 2 Smileys that describe my life right now

1. (=_=) ...this says... ayayayaya carumba! School ahead. Here we go again. Byebye sleep.

2. ^.^ ...this says... CHEERFULLY OPTIMISTIC and DETERMINED for this year!! AHA this is my underlying face on the days when I look like shit from the lack of sleep and you really can't tell what facial expression I even have on.

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~I can sense you laughing at the 2nd face ^.^~

~Don't know if you're reading this but I've missed drawing on you. Keep your sleeves rolled up!~

~Hey there Brad. Nice dot. AHA I'ma tell you tomorrow that you've got a spot on my blog... you'll be so excited you'll let me draw more dots on your face :)~

~CONGRATULATIONS MAMOOLA ON GETTING YOUR CPA.LAWTHINGYMAJIGY! Now you can be less stressed and we can stop arguing about who's gonna cook dinner~