mass guilt!

"little darling, it's been a long, cold, lonely winter
little darling, it feels like years since you've been here
here comes the sun *doo doo doo doo*
here comes the sun - and I say it's alright!"
(here comes the sun - the beatles)

so uh.. today has been a very guilty day for me - which Sean and Justin have no doubt observed throughout the day as we traipsed around northbridge/stayed in the library studying like good little Asian nerds.. I'm hoping that writing a bad blog post about it will somehow make me feel calmer. But anywho today made me feel megaguilt for two reasons:

1. Random Asian lady I've only met once pays for our lunch: ok - so justin, Sean and I were sitting down in a nice little restaurant enjoying a pleasant, Malaysian flavoured lunch. Then my mother and her friend walk into the same restaurant (COINCIDENCE?! I think not -___-) and order their own lunch... AND THEN SUDDENLY THE RANDOM ASIAN LADY PAYS FOR OUR LUNCH. I didn't exactly know what to do except flounder around helplessly - emitting small and pitiful "thank you" noises and pulling a painful smile because I felt so bad.......... I mean it was really very kind of her but still - that moment evoked guilt as I'd never felt it before.

2. I see someone I think I know (but it might not be them due to my impaired eyesight - though there's a very small chance of that) and don't know whether to wave or not so I just don't wave and we stare at each other for a second and then I look down: now this triggered immense guilt in my system. I probably should have just waved anyway but how guilty will I feel when I go back to school on Monday and I see that person and I... ;____; Aiyah!!!

I guess I still have a day to get over this...

Other than that it has been a rather pleasant and good day - and I might procure a job soon. :3 On another note: WHERE ARE ALL THE RESOURCES ABOUT ANDREW MALLARD ON THE INTERNET. stupid P&L. Thank God I'm quitting that next year.

ja mata, blog ~

camppp.

I throw my test up in the air sometime,
singing ayooo i got a zerooo!

(well, pretty close to it)

Yeah, it's a bit late of an update, but i dont really want to go to sleep.

Prefect camp on thursday and friday was lots of good fun.

well, where to start? (yeah i know, the beginning duhh)

thursday, morning, SORRY CHRIS. ahaha, he'll understand when he reads it.

arriving at camp at rossmoyne, we took our dorms, guys got the usual individual ones with the kitchen, girls got the shared ones (kinda ironic yeah?) 

lots of group activities. scanlon told us not to "nest together", well, we tried, and failed pretty miserably at inter-mingling.

being given a booklet with 130+ pages, isnt really that amazing. especially considering when you have two days to "finish" the book.

food at camp was pretty ok, standard stuff (i.e sandwiches. the entire time. THERE WAS NO RICE) well, some quotes i remember are:

-Josh growling at Chris to shut up-

Chris: being a bit aggressive there, are we Josh?

Josh: not aggressive, assertive.

Scanlon: ...take this situation, "you've just lost a match you believe you deserve to win", what do you do, as a leader? do you go up to him?

Josh: yeah, and ask him how much he gets paid.

-waiting for lunch-

me: yeah, our designs for the house bananas (banners)...

-Josh arguing, Kiara quietens down group-

Chris: behind every great man, is an even greater woman

probably are more, but i just cant remember.

oh man, i just lost it. when we found out ball was on 26th. and it's going to be held at the Esplanade, Fremantle (oh man, i can hear the complaints already. thank god im not in the ball committee)
still, 48 hours mang. 48 hours of balls/afters. goodbye sleep.

yeah, mis-understandings can cost you a lot of credit.(such as pointlessly waking Chris up at 12:30 am.)

i lost count at the number of "huge" jokes we made to Josh. but i'd say at least 100+

we kinda "sorted out" our new house system for next year, but i really dont want to recount the details. it's too much trouble/work/effort/thinking/brainpower...

LEAVERS JACKETS. we've got a few designs (as shown below) any suggestions/ideas/critiques? (credit to headboy for working with the template on photoshop):

yeah, shame there's no hoods though.
THERE'S NO WINGS. (im pretty happy about that)
the only colours we could work with, were burgundy, white and navy blue. great colour scheme we've got going there. urgh.
still feedback would be much appreciated!

leavers jacket names, think mine'll be "seany ^^y" if a teacher/random asks, the second half is a asian emoticon. the what it actually is, is a pair of horns.
therefore, replace the "^^" with "horn" and you gettt... (yeah this was peer pressure, i was perfectly content with "seanyy.")

is there much more to add?

oh, Nick, Marco, Craggs and I woke Chris up today.

it involved a cup of water, and Chris' ear. (i'll put the photo up later. too lazy to find phone cable)

10 DAMN ASSESMENTS, I JUST WANT TO BURN MY STUDY DESK AND EVERYTHING ON IT.

-rage- why did OC have to leave all the physics assignments until this last minute. urgh.

already hate optics enough.

we also got our exam timetables, which for me is:

1. 2B Chemistry : Friday           19/11/10     12:45pm-3:55pm
2. 2B Religion : Monday            22/11/10    8:30am-11:10am (wtf, need-to-wake-up-early-for-religion?!?)
3. 2B Economics: Monday        22/11/10    12:45pm - 3:55pm
4. 2B English : Tuesday             23/11/10    12:45pm-3:55pm
5. 2B Physics: Wednesday        24/11/10    8:30am - 11:40am

should we plan something for post-exams again? (hmm, will i be bothered..)
we have our dinner dance on friday of week 7. joy.

yawning now, better go sleep.
library tomorrow, hardcore studying mang.

thoughts: physics, thou art my bane.
-10 < 2 < 10

i throw my sandwich in the air sometimes; singing "ayooooo, where's the mayo?!"

"look at all those fancy clothes;
lord knows that these could keep us warm just like those.
what about your soul? is it cold?
is it straight from the mould and ready to be sold?"
(Gone - Jack Johnson: my favourite Jack Johnson song)

Ni hao everybody! Is it just me or has it been an extremely stressful week? Assessments and drama galore. I did a few horrible things this week: write an extremely nonsensical history essay, let some people down, not speak to people because due to the fact that I've suffered sleep paralysis (that's what it's called rite)/deprivation as I had a really terrible dream and couldn't find the courage to sleep/return to that dream. Also 2011 ball drama -___- But enough of the negativity! There's always tomorrow - I guess.

Discoveries of the week: the greatness of headphones, the difficulty in literature, CHOCOLATE SOY MILK, general awesomeness of friends.

Anyway, I know I'm not so adept at affection or big shows of love; which severely inhibits my social abilities.. And this in addition to the fact that things haven't been so dandy lately has probably made people think that I didn't like them :L. So I just wanted to put it out there that I love my friends and I will do this via an exploration into the types of great friends I have. Here goes:

The friend with the perpetual good (not to mention pretty) head on their shoulders:
hehe. If you're reading this I'm pretty sure you know who you are. Anyway these types of friends are always level-headed regardless of whether things are stressful or ridiculously great - and always good for helping you put things into perspective. When things are blown way out of proportion you know you can count on these types of people to deflate things again.

The silver friends: well, not so much silver. But silver in the sense that they actually secretly care about you and it has only come to light in the worst situation - sort of like a silver lining on a cloud. And the funny thing is, you are eternally grateful for your shitty quandary because you've discovered these wonderful people and the value of your friendships with them.

The friends who trigger crazy maternal/paternal instincts in you: They teach you how to care like a saint, and convince you to want to give hugs all the time because you want to protect them and their innocence from everything. ever. These people encourage you to be a better person p. much all the time.

The ^__^ friends: The ones who seem to make you laugh all the time about the silliest things and just generally lift your spirits when you are near them. If you're sad you don't even need to tell them because they will just make you start laughing ~

The friends who would probably accept you if you had an octopus on your shoulders instead of a head: I think I've been accidentally blessed with too many of these people. Best people to go to when you are in a shit. They make you realize that you're human - not a stupid gargantuan octopus.

The friends who have been there for a looooong time: stability is the best - and so are these people.

The friends you never thought you'd meet but are super cool: enough said.

The fringe friends: The friends outside your normal sphere of relationships who make you see other groups - and not to mention the world - a little bit differently and provide a refreshing breath of air when things get tough.

Pets: non-discriminatory even if you been a total ho to everyone else. Give free licks and lovin' whenever you need it.

I think all of my friends fit into one or more of each of these categories. And I suppose I just wanted to thank everyone for the super contributions they've made to my life thus far. I can only hope that I have made as many good contributions to other people's lives as they have done to mine. so... thanks guys! for not giving up on me - even if I am stupid and have a chronic affection/inferiority complex. you're the best - and even if you change I'll always be waiting. (sorta like Penelope when she waited for good ol' Odysseus)

<3

yam sennnnnng.

I got this icebox where my heart used to be.

Ice Box - Omarion

anywayyy..

._.

dont you hate it when you're on the way to school and you see someone you know,
but you just reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cant be bothered talking to them?

yeaaaaaaaaaaah bro.

or when you walk down the corridor and you see someone you've been chatting to for like, 2 hours the night before and you pretend you dont see each other?

yeaaaaaaaaaahh bro.

or when you get to school and you just cant be bothered smiling and laughing like on normal days?

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaah brooo

or when you see this incredibly good lookin' thannnggggg on the bus but all you can do is look cos like, you'd be a total creeper if you went up and said hi?

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. bro.


well.

you suckkkkk. T^T ( as do iiiiiiiiiiiii :3)


COS YOU SHOULD TOTALLY GO UP AND SAY HI.

AND GO TO SCHOOL SMILING EVERYDAY COS YOUR EMOTIONS AFFECT OTHER PEOPLE, AND IF YOU MAKE OTHER PEOPLE SAD, YOU"RE GAYYYYYYYYYYY.

AND YOU SHOULD TOTALLY STRIKE UP A CONVOOOOOOO


...

COS WE"VE GOT 1 MORE YEAR LEFT OF HIGH SCHOOOL.


WHA-BAM. BOO YEAH.


WE GOTTAAAA MAKKKEEE THEEEE MOSSTTT OUTTT OFFF ITTT ANDDD MAKKEE LIKE, A BILLION GREAT MEMORIES TOGETHER.

(Y) ^____^ < thats asian priiiiiiide rite dere.

( you have to say "kimchiiiii!" when you make the peace sign, btw. basic asian rules.)

bus!?

就算做朋友也没关系
为你改变了自己都不认识自己
不是我跑去了整形
只是我拿出真心
(it don't matter if we're friends;
i've changed for you so much i can't recognize myself,
it's not that I've had plastic surgery,
just that I showed my true heart)
Hao Jiu Bu Jian - Jay Chou

greetings good people of earth! today was another rainy day which was saddening but I hope the sky doesn't decide to shit because there's cycring to do tomorrow! yaaaaaaaay. I am take a break from history because the Ainu peoples' history is tres disorienting and makes me look at my bed with an expression of lust that could only match Graham's when looking at a poster of SNSD.

anywho ~ today I caught the bus and on Wednesdays there is a barrage of private schoolers who board the bus and talk loudly etc. Sometimes I really enjoy catching the bus because it's a great opportunity to chill and eavesdrop into these peoples' conversations. It's like hearing non-Asian Wilsons talking to other non-Asian Wilsons about their wealth *___*.

However what I've noticed with people on my bus (private schoolers in particular) is that they'll sit next to me and then when there is a vacant spot they will relocate there ;__; I've been trying to work this out for ages. But nevertheless I have figured out that the following things may be crossing their mind when they sit next to me and then decide to relocate.

1. "This chick smells bad": but I swear the guy who sat in the seat you were sitting in smells much worse than me... (chinky smell > shit smell, deshou?) but regardless, if I do smell bad someone please tell me -_____-
2. "fark more Asians clogging the public transport system - sitting next to one disgusts me": can't exactly argue with this one... :L
3. "pssh public schoolers - sitting next to one disgusts me": I would like to think that private schoolers aren't *this* snobby.
4. "ooh, if I sit here there's a better view of that guy/girl's ass": can't disagree with this one either.

... maybe next time I should strike up a conversation with the person sitting next to me. but they might get weirded out?!!?

taking public transport features a lot of weird etiquette I will never understand - but it's better for the environment and I can keep dumbfounding bus drivers' minds when I say "thank you" in unaccented Australian English as I disembark every day ~

thank you for the memories

after reading sean and rirry's joint post, i wanted to write about it as well :3 because i agree with them so so badly. i also think it's sad when people you know become people you knew. it happens all the time, friendships change, people change and they slowly fade out of your life, but the sadness you're left with remains.
i don't really realise when a person is making their way out of my life, but when they're gone and so far away, that's the moment i notice their absence. when it's too late to change anything. it hurts when previous 'best friends' ultimately become strangers. conversations that could last for hours about nothing significant become quick polite 'how are you?' '...good' meaningless exchanges in school hallways.

but in a way, you could be grateful for the people who walk in and out of your life. they have shaped you into the person you are today. they probably changed you or have given you a little piece of themselves, but i think i'm grateful for those people, because i'm glad that they were once in my life rather than not at all.

i think this is maybe one of the reasons why i love photographs so much, why i'm so excited to take them and develop them and why i stick them up all over my bedroom walls. the photos i have up are ones where we're smiling or laughing genuinely or making retarded faces and great and funny moments that were luckily captured because i love those uncomplicated memories.
a photograph doesn't grow old. the people in them may change, but the photo and the memory it represents always stay the same.

Crude Oil.

Why don't you get it?
Baby let me Love Ya, Love Ya, Love Ya

Love Ya - SS501

Leavers jackets planning has commencedd. this morning, called to H.O.Y's office, and we were assigned into committees for dinner dance, ball and jackets. woo, Chris is with me for jackets.

recess was spent looking at designs and whatnot.

"I felt very violated, everyone kept feeling me all over." Chris

haha, your own fault for wearing the jacket design we wanteddd. besides that.

i thought today would be a nice and easy afternoon, no badminton today (on a sidenote, Bryan came to school! but left at recess when he found out there was no training haha.) and so i thought i could just go home, study and then sleep early.

well.

i was wrong. (as usuall)

sitting down in homeroom, first thing was "hey, sean can you help tutor me after-school at the library?"

yeah, there goes my plan for a quiet afternoon.

finished physics and chem stuff in the library around 4:30.

walked to get picked up, didnt get picked up till 5:35 (thank god for iPods)

no, the bus was not a viable option.

came home, and got stuck into phys + chem. mann, crude oil is really crude. (see what i did there?) no-one really cares about the-Mesozoic-period-and-its-importance-in-the-formation-of-crude-oil.

which reminds mee,

i got my subject choice forms, and it looks like this:

1. 3AECO      2   Economics: Unit 3A (nap time/bit of work)
2. 3CMAT     1   Mathematics: Unit 3CD (sh*ttt)
3. 3AENG     1    English: Unit 3A (nap time)
4. 3AREL      1    Religion and Life: Unit 3A (nap time)
5. 3ACHE     1    Chemistry: Unit 3AB (memory work)
6. 3APHY     2    Physics: Unit 3AB (maths based, sh*ttt)

oh man, next year will be loads of fun. (and i mean lots and lots of fun!)
im considering dropping 3A REL, maybe do 1CD instead? but i dont want to be in a class with randoms. still, if i take 1CD REL, means i have one less WACE exam, any thoughtss?


timetable is almost exactly the same as Jodie's. (just like year 10) except i have english when she has lit... not many others i've seen so far with the timetable just as similar hmmm.


Sennheiser headphones -thumbs up- dont know what i'd do without them. so much better than the cr*appy $10 pair i got from Sanity (had to use a gift card lol.) still, although they may look a bit odd wearing in public, i still love them.


tomorrow, recess and lunch will be spent helping selecting sizes for leavers jackets. 200+ people in about an hour and a bit, chances of succeeding? (hopefully high, actually no, not likely.)

that pretty much ends it for today (yes, i made an attempt to not have it as depressing lol.)


thoughts: 1CD or 3AB hmm.
-10 < -3 < 10.

MO MAN TAI~

When you're hacking.....the whole world, hacks with you.

Yes it does. :D

this apple tastes funny.

"Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have, stayed up with you all night."

How To Save A Life - The Fray

Taking a break from my physics report (damn i really hate optics.)

today i'm stumped/clueless as to what to write about. it's becoming pretty "stressful" i guess im just not seeing/showing it. (yet.)
slept when i came back from coaching public speaking, pretty bad headache. (but i guess that's what you deserve when you live off 4 hours sleep.)

-sighh- im really losing my wit patience, and no longer as tolerant with people. (i wonder whyy eh...)

still, i dont really think it matters. you can't please anyone everyone, it's nice having a few close friends that (quoting jamiee) "i can trust with my life." there always will be people you clash with, but proof of your character is when you can see past those differences. (yeah well not everyone can look past them.)

got an email from badminton tournament, we originally intended to have 70-80 people, but we ended up with approximately 150 (whoah.) which would then go to explain the absolute chaos that was "gala".

today was mostly spent mocking running and hiding. yes, this is retribution. retaliate all you want, im not going to stop mangg.

the word "meh" is becoming a favourite of mine, shows that you dont really care give a damn aha. extremely useful in situations where you couldnt care less. (ah the joys and wonders of sarcasm.)

you can drift apart from people amazingly fast. but i dunno, i guess i just really miss those conversations that would go for hours long, about the most random-est of things. yeah, i doubt much more can be done to fix/solve right now, it's just in everyone's nature to move on when there's no longer a purpose.

11:11 now. and personally, i think am sure there's not much purpose to it at all.
it seems to be one of those things you grow up with, thinking that if you wish hard enough, wish plenty of times, it will eventually come true. yeah well, false hopes much? (yes i know im sounding extremely cynical, i just dont see how it could possibly improve anything.)
part of me still wants to believe it's true though. is it the childish nature? or our own tendency to hope and dream?

school's being an absolute b*tch, physics and chem, yes i know i shouldnt complain, but there's not much else going on. (that i can think of really.)
economics, we got chocolate, explaining market structure and the difference between equity and efficiency.
physics, research about the optics pract.
english, got our essays back, 23/25 yeahh, mashima still pwned just beat me with a 24 though (i hate youu ahaha jks jks.)
religion, nothing as usual, kinda feeling bad about not bothering to try, even though it has one of the best teachers.
maths, spent around 20 minutes of the lesson sitting outside, teacher had obviously forgotten about the 16 of us who are still at school.

it's becoming more fun, and interesting having more people contribute to the blog. everyone has their own unique writing styles, and it adds variety. for me, first and foremost, it's a medium (physics omg.) that allows me to relax a bit. something that allows me to reflect on my day, and how messed up human nature is.

anyways, physics is calling me back with its seductive voice (i just absolutely love it.)
camp in 3 days time, woo.


thoughts: really?
-10 < -3 < 10

"the heart of life is good" - john mayer

recently, i think i've figured out who my real friends are and it's a really comforting feeling having a few people that i feel like i can trust with my life. (esp whaleface). and it's not just my friends at school, i am also forever grateful that i have an amazing big brother. even though he probably would never ever read this and is currently 18, 623 km away, i miss him so much and i'm happy we still skype and facebook and email and all but i feel like home is so incomplete. he used to balance me out so well and he knows me better than anyone, he was always over affectionate, even when i was always like 'blergh feelings are for losers' and forced me into suffocating hugs (invading my personal bubble) and played soft guitar songs that i could hear through the thin walls at night to help me sleep and drove me to mcdonalds at 11pm when i craved mcflurries and lied for me and stood up for me and made me noodle soup and made me listen to amazin songs and now i worry about him all the way in north carolina but i'm happy he's on his way to fulfilling all of his dreams, even though i'm not there with him.

i think family is the most important thing. but i've found that those close friends count as family too. they're just as important and always will be. i can't imagine ever losing them because they truly make everything worthwhile :3

Sherlock

You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Haru Haru - Big Bang

Surprisingly, today was pretty relaxing ok.

Woke up at 9, and went to state library to study.

Aileen came at 11, Justin 11:30 and Graham at 12.

yes, i got quite a bit done.

phys is still a load of bull.

chem, a decent amount done.

english at least i've done a bit of the story.

(yeah im still screwed.)

saw some guys from Wesley at library, didnt recognise them at first (you could've come over and said hi ahaha.)

lunch at Taka, omg, ate so much. ahah Justin losing the two dollars beneath the table. we played scissor-paper-rock to determine who would have to go up and ask to go under the table to get the coins. (dammit i lost) Aileen and Graham had gone back first already, to see Leon.

spent the evening watching Sherlock, and half of Castle.

man, mystery/crime dramas always make for an interesting show.

nooo, why is it that Sherlock wont be back till 2011 that's too far awayy.

on a side note, the term "no shit sherlock" is one i love using, except for the fact i rarely remember to use it when the situation arises.

im getting sleepy, so there's not much more im going to write.

tomorrow, staying back at school till 4 something, coaching little kids for public speaking.

rant time and all i can really say is, please stop being petty. (yes i know you're probably going to read this.)

but seriously, does every little comment have to be taken to heart?
laugh it off, ignore it, pretend you dont care. life's too short to listen to every snide comment.

it'd be much better to just get along with him/her and to enjoy time. hell, we're ending high school soon, and for all that may matter, maybe you'll never see each other again.

(yes i know i just contradicted all my previous rants aha. but i dont really care, i can do whatever i like.)

still, in summary, don't take everything to heart, or it'll just hurt you too much.

thoughts: zomfg, i want more sleep.

-10 < -2 < 10

Take a break...

....and have a kitkat.






Sometimes the small, simple things in life are the things you enjoy the most :D




(Also Sean, maybe fix up your blog template, maybe rearrange the widgets or something cause the copyright thing is now at the top of the page :O)

douuuuuuuushiiiiteeeeee.

I sit by myself talking to the moon trying to get to you,
In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too.
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon.

Talking To The Moon - Bruno Mars

JUST THOUGHT I"D PUT LYRICS THERE TOO. NOT COS Y'KNOW, EVERYONE ELSE WAS DOING IT OR ANYTHING. ._.

How come a teenagers life is so complicated? It full of useless, time wasting things that we feel the need to do. The ball, social outings, facebook, msn, tv, music, downloads, books, photos , they're all useless. Yet, why do every single one of us fuss and worry over such unnecessary stuff?
After all, it wont be beneficial to us in any way in the future.

I hate how i get caught up in doing all these things that i always end up forgetting what is most important. School, and Family. None of the previously mentioned stuff should actually be on our minds right now. Its not going to change our lives, its not going to help us with our lives, its just there for us stupid little humans to waste time on and entertain ourselves with.
I always tell myself that i should improve myself, study some extra books, learn some knowledgable stuff that will make me a high placed person in society in the future. But all that is forgotten as soon as i go home from school and turn on the computer. How is it that i can waste so much time doing so little things? Why do these little things mean so much to me?

I hate our generation now, how we turn on the computer as soon as we go home, and we just say " good" when our parents ask us how school was. Our parents, who have spent so many years to bring us up and teach us, should not deserve all these mood swings and this kind of treatments from us teenagers. Is it really so hard to turn around, look them in the face and tell them how you get a housepoint if you buy a salad from the school canteen, or that you've recieved a certificate during assembly, or that you only went to the library at lunch and borrowed a book? I'm pretty sure the parents would be more than happy to hear what you bought for lunch, and what you learnt in class, even if its the most boring thing ever for you. They've raised you for 16 odd years, and their attempts to get closer to you and understand you have been crushed under your single worded answers. You might think that they dont care about what you did at school, and all they care about is your marks, but you aren't thinking things from their perspective at all.
They make you angry, they make you frustrated, You get annoyed and wonder why they're so dumb. But really, in a few years, you're going to look at your own child and say " So how was school? What did you do?" desperate for some kind of topic to talk to with your own very child that you've seen take their first step and say their first words to. Just because our parents have been there ever since you were born doesn't mean that you can take them for granted and treat them like shit. ( I"M NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU SPECIFICALLY, I"M ... STEREOTYPING. :3)

And really. Are friends really much more important than family? Who is it that will support you in anything you do? Who will still be there when everyone graduates and leaves you? Why is it that as soon as you go home, you go to your room and turn on the computer to chat to friends that you've just seen 30 minutes ago? what MORE can you possibly chat about? Why waste your time talking about some thing that could be said the next day, and why not use that time to study, or to spend time with family?
The generation we live in now have families that eat dinner at different times, and have no means of communications between each other at all. Whats the point of being a family then? You're just a bunch of strangers who live together and take each other for granted. Your mother doesn't have to wake up at 5:30 with you and help you make breakfast and drive you to school. She could sleep in till 10, and go to work, and come home late at night. But she doesnt, cos she loves you and wants you to have the best upbringing, and so THAT is how she drags herself out of bed and does all that stuff for you. its not like she gets up at 5:30 for fun.

MAKES ME SO FRIKKEN FRUSTRATED.
ausdyliaudflhiausdfalisdfyuailsudfasdfasdf
KIDS THESE DAYS DONT REALISE THAT THEY"RE GOING TO GROW UP AND HAVE THEIR OWN KIDS TREAT THEM LIKE HOW THEY TREATED THEIR OWN PARENTS.

I wish we could go back to the olden days where all the kids studied really hard and went to sleep at 7:00 at night because there was no source of light. Where they would have the greatest respect for their parents and help out where ever they can, cos they've got heaps of time on their hands.
Now, i bet you're thinking that WE dont have time. that school is making you "oh so busy".
what a load of crap. you MAKE your own time. it was your fault that you slept at 1:00 playing dota, or that you just spent 2 hours clicking on "home" continuously on facebook wondering if someone would write on your wall, or "like" a witty status that you spent ages thinking up. The concept of time is there for us to control. ourselves.
You're never too busy. You've got loads of time. It all depends on how you waste it.

You'd think that "oh, i've still got heaps of time left in life, i'm only 16."
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh no. next thing you'd know, you'd be 21. then you'd be 49. then you'd be 60 something and looking at your own grandkids and thinking where all your time went to.
shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. thats right. it all went to writing this stupid frikken blog.

i'm so freakin sleep deprived.
LOL

i'm going to .. uh.. sleep.
._.

I"VE BEEN BLABBERING FOR LIKE, 230472934627368734234 minutes. and this is all asdfylasduifyadf gay depressing stuff. ( also, oh my gah its so long.) SORRY.
gomen, gomen.

P.S THAT WHOLE "FRIENDS BEING UNIMPORTANT" THING IS NOT TRUE, I LOVE YOU ALL <3.

yes sean, i'm now turning off the " serious and self reflective mode".

;D I LOVE B2STTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

tournamentt

Tell me why why why, I’m wanting only you.
No bye bye bye, Don’t say those sad words.

Love - CN Blue

Well, today was really extremely tiring.

Waking up early at 8 7:30, arriving at Kingsway at 8:45. (joy).

from 9-5. all i got, was 6 5 games. (cant even remember numbers properly, what a great way to spend the day)

majority entire day of it was spent writing down matches, and yelling out for players and umpires (double joy).

been too long out of touch, cant even run move around the court anymore (damn i feel fat.) still, i guess it was pretty ok. wish i had brought some lunch though (thanks for forgetting about me during your maccas run ahaha)

all in all, i still want my free t-shirt (man im so asian).

didnt do much the rest of the day. finished reading Scarecrow, and read a bit a lot of Mockingjay.

im sore all over (zomg.)

lesson learnt: make sure you warm up/stretch properly before playing, or-your-arms-become-so-dead-you-cant-even-lift-them-higher-than-chest-height. (5 points to the person who guessed what happened to me -for all intentions, that was heavily laden with sarcasm.)

library tomorrow, more work to be done.

chemistry: report and some exercises. (really now?)

physics: optics report (sh*t, havent got that yet even urghh.) and some motion + heating + cooling revision.

economics: revision over topics, and make sure i know what everything means (english failed so badly just then.)

english: short story (at least i have a plot line and character now...kinda.)

maths: can go die, i really dont care about chain and quotient rules. (which reminds me, need to call tutor...)

^what a fun-filled day at the library it will be!

this coming week, Prefect camp, yesssss.

means im screwed at school, at least a lesson of each subject missed, maybe even 2. (oh god, phys, chem + econs.)

still, we'll see how it goes, if not i'll just work hard my ass off for exams.

you've got to love imbalanced badminton divisions (yeah, thats the main thing on my mind. surprisingly.)

sums up today. i think.

no rants (yet), still a bit so-so.

thoughts: so sore, urgh. yes i will still rip your head off. cheers.

-10 < -3 < 10

我很累

有时候 有時候 我會相信一切有尽頭
相聚離開有有時候 没有什麽會永垂不朽
There are times, there are times when I can believe there's an end to it all,
We meet, we part, everything has a time, there's nothing immortal.
(red bean - Khalil Fong hsdjagk it's a really good song)

Do you ever see someone online and want to die? Maybe it's their ever-so-bangin' display picture or the fact that they're really popular on facebook or the fact that you know everyone you're talking to is acting really disinterested towards you because they're talking to that person.

.'. dou suru no?

1. Study... and then sign into msn five minutes later and get even more depressed.
2. Watch tv... go back to your msn screen in the ad break and find out nobody is talking to you.
3. Watch the Big Bang theory and laugh at all of the characters because they're socially awkward and can't mix with the wider world but then you realize you're just the same and a cloud hangs over your head.
4. Take pictures of yourself. And then compare. And then delete every picture you've taken.
5. Go to sleep. Wait, it's 5:00 PM and you need to do homework.

I don't understand. Was I destined for this kind of thing? (because it always happens) Put every once of love into every person I can but remain just as lonely? Why am I so unnoticeable/average? I wonder what I did in my past life. why can't I just be... better? *sings regina spektor* (blame parents' DNA)

4 years turns into 3 years, 3 years turns into 2 years, and 2 years turns into one year. Why do I still feel the same?

6 weeks turns into 5 weeks, 5 weeks turns into 4 weeks but I still can't bring myself to study for exams because everything is just wrong.

10 hours turns into 9 hours, and 9 hours turns into 8 hours, yet the homework pile doesn't decrease.

Saturday turns into Sunday and Sunday turns into Monday, but it doesn't get better because then it's Tuesday. (-groans-)

I want fluoro orange shoes. I want to be tall. I want to be less god damned average. I want to be able to stand in a crowd of perfect, pretty asians and fit in for once. I want people to know hard it is for me to give hugs. I want a pair of Sennheiser headphones. I want to have a nice, unmanly voice. I want to be the best at something. I want to re-live the 90s. I want to be good at maths. I want to be funny. I want my asian parents to think I'm good enough. I want to be all these things I'll never be because I'm me and I can't do anything.

sho helpless.

anyway good night, internet.
and sorry Ainu people; your history is intriguing but I want to sleep now.

current thoughts: WHY DO LIT CLASSES FOR NEXT YEAR HAVE TO BE MIXED AROUND?! if I don't get my teacher again I will feel like a Taiwanese person who has just discovered they can't have bubble tea ever again.

PS: sean; you're as far as you could get from being fat.

Scarecrow.

A day without you is too long. 
I pray that I may please forget you (that’s a lie).Lies - Big Bang

End of another day. (damn they go fast.)

one day closer to end of year, and exams (oh god).

"i'm tired, yet i dont want to sleep.

angry, yet not wanting to let it go.

giving up, yet still hoping."

3/5 periods today was spent having fun setting up in the gym. (who knew there were so many chairs.) mostly involved moving chairs back and forth, miscommunication making it all the more great. (when you have 20+ people contributing ideas, it isnt exactly neat.)

meh, doesnt matter, it's over.

graduation assembly period two was ok-ish. a bit lots of music, some lots of cheering. hard to believe it'll be us in just a years time. (man i feel oldd.)

the graduation mass just finished about 2 hours ago. felt pretty long, then again, maybe i wasnt really that focused on it.

physics vectors test was ok i guess. but i've reached the point where i dont really care anymore (yeah im gonna be screwed this time next year.) but hey, it is pretty boring. (then again, most things are, except...)

badminton tournament tomorroww, but i dunno. doesnt seem that exciting. need to wake up early to get to Kingsway, but it'll be ok after that (i hope). 3 events, singles, doubles and mixed doubles (and i have no idea who my partners are at all.) my best chance probably is at singles, unless there's some pro player that was placed in the wrong division. (P(pro player) = 0.95)

now, for my own, self deluding rant. (yes i've had enough.)

i hate it, so goddamn much. formalities really suck a whole lot. if you dont mean it, dont even bother trying. is this really who you are? or was i just lied to all along. it hurts, a whole lot. you still mean a lot to me, but slowly its slipping away. would i be happier if i didnt see you? i dont know, maybe. but the remainder of me says never to think that. i really was an idiot for ever wishing that.

went to library after school today, picked up 3 books. cant remember them, except Scarecrow (hence title of post). i really enjoy Reilly's books, fast paced and descriptive. bit confusing at times, but re-reading it makes it much more fun. (dont think i'll be getting much sleep tonight loll)

summing up, before i leave: this is pretty screwed. that is all.

thoughts: annoy me, and i will rip your -insert profanity-ing head off. kthxbai.

-10 < -5 < 10

Joint Post Pt 1

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨

跌倒了就不敢继续往前走
If you have too many complaints towards this world
When you fall down you don't dare to continue walking forward

People change, though not necessarily for the best.
i guess it's inveitable, everyone changes. all i know is that it really sucks, when someone close to you becomes someone you dont even know anymore.
(ah well, delusional rants, got to love them)
i miss the old you, the one who would make sarcastic jokes, and beat the hell out of me aha. now, i dont really know, are you really like this? or is it because you've changed..

So now you find yourself in an awkward situation where the person next to you feels like they're a million miles away. is it you or is it them? or maybe it's the both of you, a meter, a mile, what difference is there? they're no longer close to you. you're wondering about the catalyst that has so rapidly spurred this change; and why exactly this catalyst had to get tipped into the alkane you didn't want to react with the halogens floating around in the atmosphere. was it all the catalysts fault? or was it inevitable, that eventually, bonds would be broken. in chemical nature to want more - or at least a full shell arrangement. or a saturated number of carbon bonds. but once two atoms (one being your dear friend) achieve their awesome shared full shell arrangement things aren't the same anymore. "same" describes what you miss, something you wish you still had with your friend.
they're seemingly complete. they complement each other. content with their octet. of all the similarities. connected. an image of an asian mother pops into your head and says 'yao mou gao chor ah, cannot  change things la" but alas; what of you and your friend? how many times have you proved your asian mother wrong, maybe this time, she's right..

you feel annoyed at this situation, first. if annoyed would even be the right word to use at all.
then you realize that there's nothing you can do about it. not without making an idiot of yourself, and having all your "friends" stare you down.
except maybe hope that some crazy force of intermolecular attraction will keep you and yo' smitten friend from straying. but how long will the force last? or is it broken already.

but at the end of it all you just gotta hang in there and wish on every shitty 11:11 regardless of rain or shine or melancholy or ecstasy that you don't lose people and that they don't forget you. 11:11 always was a weird concept, why 11:11? maybe the ones look nice, but i guess, "one" is how everyone thinks, only "one" thing matters to them.

OK. enough with the (stupid) chemical metaphors. gomenasai. these chemistry tests must have really gotten to my sanity...today was shitty, the weather was shitty, it was cold and i wanted to cry because i'm a monster. not even a nice cookie monster.just a lonely, stupid monster.and i have done so, so many bad things.
but hopefully this shit turns into fertilizer and everything will be a-ok. and from my fertilizer flowers and nice plants will grow.
i leave you with some wise words of wisdom from confucius: "man who eat cracker in bed wake up feeling crummy."

"patience is a virtue", but what happens when you run out of patience? what's left? maybe the guilt, knowing that you were too "patient" and didnt bother at all. still, how much nicer, would life be if i wasnt this patient? wasnt this willing, wasnt this complacent. i really dont know.

all you do is go on and on, about them. really, does nothing else matter anymore? the world's such a messed up place. there's still part of me that almost wishes "that" never happened, wouldnt it be so much different? maybe you'd still be the same...

was it a mistake? sometimes i doubt my very own judgment, what was i thinking at the time? really, is this what i was meant to do? there's not much you can do anymore really, but i guess all you can do is hope. hope that things will turn out fine, eventually. hope that one day, maybe things will go back to normal. i miss those times, a whole lot. all of those memories are the best things i remember, the things that matter most to me. mutual distance is now what binds us, i guess. oh well, life's never fair. all you need to do is learn how to ignore the injustice.

zai jian, world

sayonaraa

Look at that pencil!

There once was a man named Sean

Who knew how to mow the lawn

He blogs with ease

So tell him please

THERES AN EDIT BUTTON ON THE BOTTOM OF THE POST

Other than that, no further questions.

:D 

harro!

不要哭過了沒
因為超人不流眼淚
(Don't ask if I've cried before; because supermen can't shed tears)
-ehe I did a Sean!

Anyway xie xie Sean for letting my procrastinate by hijacking your blog! I'm actually finding this really fun and maybe I should create one of my own (although probably at the consternation of Arthur Asparagus who will most likely call me *dun dun dun* gay - which is the worst insult in the world bcuz gay people aren't all bad y'know- just sayin').

So; the topic of Corpus-Mod relations! I sort of wanted to write about this because I feel like there's been a rockin' new spirit of kinship between our schools which is great, and for this we should thank Sean and Kristy who first brought Mod and Corpus together for a mere game of badminton. It's been a long time since then. I no longer hasten to think of Sean as a leprechaun because of his accent, new romances have cropped up (ones that I would never have picked when I was in year 9), there have been so many new people to meet and it's just been so different... but I wouldn't have it any other way because:

a. it has provided us (okay, mostly me) lots of entertainment (especially when heaps of Corpus people hit on my undeniably good looking friends)
b. Corpus and Mod are asking each other to their respective balls which is really interesting and cool and solidifies the Corpus Mod relationship. Also people seem to be changing after meeting people from Mod and that is rly intriguing.
c. the whole experience has really humbled me in a way. I've had the opportunity to meet really cool/fantastic/interesting people (not to mention good looking) and some great friends along the way.
d. Corpus and Mod seem to be as tight as relations between China and North Korea (which is tiiiiiight)

Here are things I don't understand about Corpus Christi:
1. Why do you guys put up with having to do a shitty indoctrinating subject such as religious education?
2. Why don't you guys exile your socially conservative principal?
3. Why are you guys so nice and good looking every time I see you?! heh.

Things I don't understand about Mod:
1. Why are you guys all so good looking? huahuahuahuhauhua
2. And smart?

Actually the real reason why I wanted to write was because I think Sean really deserves multiple pats on the back. He has tirelessly organized and tried to be a good friend to everyone and studies I think that is hen hao. (don't change for anyone, Sean ~) So thanks, Sean.
NB: I of all people do not think you are gay in any way.

on an unrelated note: today was weird and misleading because of the weather. it seemed like it was going to be fine yesterday but then what do you know - a mini storm.

aiyah chemistry test tomorrow. did you know there's a correlation of 0.8 between good sleep and good scores? bleh don't want to go to school! want to go to corpus christi for a day to see what it's like!

anyway sayounara sean's blog ~ it's getting late.

fun fact: proxeneta = pimp in spanish

i ruv yew everyone (even if you don't ruv me)

GOMEN.

im adding this extra blog post, because i kinda feel bad.

yes, im happy i get to spend two weekends with NANCY and ANYI.

and maybe a bit tiny amount of row-yi, (i think.)

special minister of the eucharist.

the best thing about tonight is that we're not fighting.
could it be that we have been this way before?  

 Omg Adam, you retard ahaha. "i'm watching my figure" (lol Nathan to creepy lady in sweet store)

eh eh, my BMI is fine, it just says "underweight"

anywayss, setting that it aside.

DAILY UPDATE.

hospital is so damn interesting boring. spending an entire day, doing nothing at all, except listening to music, amidst little kids crying raging.

eh, maybe i should drop by to Perth Mod next time for a visit. (if the times work out right ahaha)

i usually sometimes question my judgement. (i.e allowing Adam to post.)

ah well, either way, this'll turn out to be interestingg.

no, NO. I DONT WANNA GO AWARDS NIGHT. (poor justin, going for just 1ab RE. ahaha suckaaa jks jks). still, i guess free food is enticing (no, dont think that, it's just like YEP all over again)

i had to go all the way back to school again, just to do special minister of the eucharist training. man, we learnt about the origin of the Passover and importance of Eucharist, not exactly the most engaging topic on a tired wednesday afternoon. (even then, at least huge boy was there for me to nudge time to time ahah.) still, 3 more weeks, and in that time, we need to learn almost everything noooo.

ah well, what else is there. oh right. zomg, physics. the pract has been pushed back to friday (i-love-you-out-of-class-leadership-role) so yeah, one extra day, apparently we dont even need to "study" for it (ch, yeah.)

chem, walked past ms chong's office, and she questioned why i was away

"i had a hospital appointment"

people no longer go  

"aww why? what happened?"

they just say  

"oh, ok."

yeah that's how frequent an excuse it is for me. 

badminton tournament upcomingg, no idea whether its sat or sunday.

i hope sunday, so i can still muck around study at the library on sat. (yeah, lots of stuff done ahaha)

urgh, cant believe i need to go to an interview to go to a ball (im going to be shitting myself.) still, its not till next year (i think.) so there's some procrastination time (yay.)

either way, i think i'll wrap it up here.

not much else to write. (i think)

(if not i'll write a new post)

thoughts: wagging classes tomorrow, yes!

-10 < 6 < 10

BIG SWEETLAND ME

I am your father, Sean. We will be fatter than fat boi fat chong YAOWEI~ nong.......BEAN CURD PIE

(Any reference to any real life persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental)

Sean, I think it's time we started to fatten up.


And there's only one way to do that.

BIG SWEETLANDDDDDDDDDD

Let's win loads of useless chocolates and sweets and 'self indulge' so much that we become the size of Wilson's dad (no offence intended)...

I'm not sure how this is relevant to your blog but I decided to post it because I figured we really do need to gain some weight.

:D 

thoughts: wingwong biscuits with peanut butter
download speed: FASTER THAN YOUR MOTHERS NORMAL DISTRIBUTION CURVE 

mary mackillop awarddd

 I wanna be a billionaire, so fricking bad.
Buy all of the things I never had.

(lol jks, im Wilson)

Updating my bloggg, cause SOMEONE (no names mentioned, cough-row-yi-cough) suggested me to update this daily. (jks, i was planning to anyway)

ah well, where to start?
extremely busyy, awards night and graduation dinner, woo, get to miss out classes. (yeahh phys + chem)
(dammit, im screwed for the tests though)

ahaha, well, Mary Mackillop Award (for best all rounder) yes im happy ofc ahahah. although most people say its the "most priestly  saintly religious award"
i-dont-want-to-stand-up-for-three-minutes-while-they-present-a-speech-about-my-oh-so-very-sad-life-with-a-giant-photo-of-me-on-the-projector-behind-me.
please dont go to awards night if you're reading this. (arigatouu)
im like a proud dad for all other friends who won their awards ahaha, Nick in MAS, and Bryan (even though he wags half the time of school, lucky boy) in accounting and english. omgg, Nat you're so noob pro at design tech ahahaha.
as usual, Annabel wiped out almost owned all of the important asian awards.(i.e phys, chem, eng lit, religion, italian..omfg, 5/6)
but yeah, i guess im looking forward to awards on thursday (free food, hell yes! carrying-heavy-metal-trays-for-half-an-hour oh god.)

english, we've been watching "The Castle" ahaha, its funny
"Real estate agent here say, plane fly over, drop house prices. In Beirut, plane fly over, drop bombs!"
omg i love that guy LOL.
damnn, i really should get started on my english short story.
except all of my ideas so far had been shot down -sad face-
1) cant be a refugee
2) cant be seeking political asylum
3) cant be from North Korea
4) cant be from the Korean war as a "migrant"
urghh, any suggestions? i seriously am stuck for ideas, and dont really want to write about migrants (yeah im ranting right now)

chemistryyy, zomg, that test on redox was ridiculous, spent too much time saying "OIL RIG" and "LEOA GERC" in my head (goes to show, you should study.) (ahaha no way)

PHYSICS, ARGH. NO! I DO NOT WANT A TEST ON OPTICS URGHHHH. thats ridiculous, considering how me and my team spent most of our time trying to use lenses to set someones pants on fire (true story, it was lots of fun, and we did get some smoke -and no, it was not because of their ass-)

economics: AHAHA craggsy blocking the door and Ramsey asking him to "drop and give me 20" he had to hold a half squat for 1.5 mins in the end, but at least i got some chocolate coated peanut m&ms.

religion: bleh.

maths: bleh x 2

but yeahh, ball planning wise.
Perth Mod Ball WOO~ ahaha going with Kristy as friends/bros. LOL, yeah, it'll be lots of fun, especially on a limo bus (zomg yes)
and im so happy that i get to spend two weeks with Row-yi! (5 points if you picked up the sarcasm, jks jks)
so much i wish i could say, but i'd get in trouble be bashed by parties unbeknown.

ah the joys of life.

maybe i'll do a proper update sometime later, but for now, byee

thoughts: omg sleeeeeeeeeep.
-10 < 5 < 10

Cloud Nine.

...you're so hot that i melted,

i fell right through the cracks.

These past two days have been absolutely insane crazy messed up retarded screwed fked. (you get the idea)

ball planning this, ball planning that. (stupid innuendos, sometimes "balls" comes up. yeah, bad innuendo)

aaron: So, you've got two balls now??? (yeah, that can be taken the wrong way.)

it just went on and on and on. (replay replay replayyy)

well, ball partners.
CLOUD NINE. ahaha. (anything higher than that?)
yeah, i asked her at the Pasar Malam (indo: night markets) just this night, and she said yes.
(omg, not a depressing blog post for once ahah.)

Calvin asked Jodie, hmmm interesting to see what happens. (i think)
aiyoh, so much more i'd like to say. but i dunno if im meant to hahaha. will post up the partnerings then, when everything's ok. (hopefully soon laa, you can't keep all this happiness/excitement to yourself.)

-facepalm- oh man, this really has been ridiculous. everyone's been worrying/stressing/anxious over the ball. but i guess ball > exams anyday. (exams are more straightforward thoughhh....and cost lesss -asian lol-)

hmm, besides that, not much else has been happening i guess. i mean, i can only say so much in public (ah the power of google.)

physics: studying heat mang. (what is the change in...-ah there goes train of thought-)
chemistry: practice for redox test, monday. (and period 1 too, fml.)
economics: new chapter, been a bit bored in class.
religion: pfft.
english: oh god, short stories.
maths: lalala nothing to do (well, i am "meant" to start 3CD.)

study at library tomorrow (yeah hardcore man.).

washing dishes has been fun. parents suspicious of why i've been "hen guai" (so good).
either way, it'll all be worth it soon ahahaha. -fingers crossed-

man, cant think of anything else to write about. maybe i'll update with a new post when im at the library tomorrow.

thoughts: hell yesss.
-10<10<10     <- yehh.

2010.12.10 (i need more creative titles seriously)

Everytime I close my eyes,

I see my name in shining lights.

(note: was meant to be published yesterday, but i forgot to hahaha.
First day back to school. and i miss holidays already (really really REALLY miss them.)

great way to start kick off the term, english urgh. (each minute in class feels like 10 minutes normally. yeah.)

physics was interesting as always usual (provided im paying attention. i.e awake.).
new topic of heat ahaha, probably the one time ocallaghan accepted didnt laugh at a chemistry definition.
( Q: what is temperature? A: a measure of average kinetic energy of particles. ooohh snap.)
we eventually went off on a tangent about which snakes have infrared vision.

ocallaghan: what snakes kills the most people in india?
kieran: the boa constrictor.
-laughing-
ocallghan: what? where does the boa constrictor come from?
kieran: the amazon?
ocallaghan: good, now how close is the amazon to India?

ahh man, hope i have him as a teacher again next year.

photos for sporting teams and ECA are up. didnt know i looked so fat ahaha.

handed out the badminton forms today. no-one seemed particularly interested except Teddy and Fish.
hmm,. ah well, i-enjoy-running-around-on-a-court-smashing-a-feather-shuttle-hoping-that-it-will-land-on-their-side-within-boundaries-and-score-me-a-point-drawing-me-closer-to-winning-the-match-and-maybe-a-new-$5-grip hahh.

missed out econs and maths, i hope i didnt fail the maths exam too badly (fml, quite literally.)

just realized i need to sing sign (lol sing, wtf) my house captain camp form. fkyeah camp.
two days of school missed out (im screwed for econs, phys + chem urgh) and maths tuition (good/bad? i dunno.)

yeahhh, 138.5 hours of community service done, just a bit more to reach the 200 club. (never really thought i'd reach that honestly.)

i came to a mental epiphany (in the middle of english, how surprising.). screw the idea of seeking out a girl. life's much more fun when you have nothing to worry about. cheers Graham aha. hmm, who to ask to the ball- screw that, plenty of time aha. i'd rather spend my time as a hermit watching Gurenn Lagann (yeah its catchy.)

either way, i find this much more interesting to rant on about, than pointlessly wasting time on fb aha.
its like the friend i never had. someone to rant to, for a few hundred odd words. (well i can rant to Nat, but she'd just punch beat the cr*p out of me probably, wait, definitely.)

thoughts: 4 weeks, shit, 4 chem assesments, 4 physics assesments, 2 english assesment, and god knows how many other ones for religion, economics and maths (oh wait, 3AB is OVER!)
-10 < 0 < 10  <-- yeah im getting there. more of disinterest really

bye.

2010.10.11

And it's not a cry that you hear at night,
It's not somebody who's seen the light.
It's a cold and broken Hallelujah.

Didn't sleep much today.

I "woke up" at 2pm, but really, only slept for about 2 hours urgh.
(reading/listening to music/writing gets pretty boring after 10 hours)

waste of a day, hardly any homework done.
(urgh, chem + phys)

can't believe i'm actually wanting to go back to school.
(guess it takes my mind off things.)


cooking dinner was a pain, quite literally.
onions can really really really sting. (note to self: wear goggles next time)

somehow, i don't believe Aaron's death threats for the picture posted earlier will be upheld.
"I will rape you in positions unimaginable" or
"I will find every opportunity to shove an ice tea bottle up your ass"
^maybe he should try it on Bryan -seedy smile-

sh*ttt, summer uniform tomorrow.
really don't wanna wear the shorts and shirt that goes to my knees. (seriously, size 25?!)
english first period = more sleeping time (yay.)
miss out economics and maths though, got a hospital appointment (again.)

hmm. need to photocopy those badminton forms, and distribute them amongst friends.
(find badminton partner for doubles and mixed doubles)
$40 for 3 events, and a free t-shirt (im asian, probably the "free" part that enticed me, lol.)

ah, the joys of being a year 11. i wonder when they'll post the subject awards though hmmm (not that im in contention for anything hahh.)

thoughts: how much can you take before you bend and then finally crack?
-8/10

2010.10.10. (aha, so many 10's)

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seem's like it's been forever,

Since you've been gone.

-sings along out of tune-

school starting in two days, not exactly very interesting the most fun.
(sleeping sounds much more appealing)
5 weeks of last minute studying, few tests and assignments. then exams.
again.
-shakes head-
stop exams, save trees!

arghh, chemistry and physics tests second week back.
need to spend an entire day revising over redox and motion. (OIL RIG chyeah, maybe revise, if im bothered -probably not-)
^seriously, i hate redox. (oh god, chemistry jokes),

picnic was pretty good today, but I think I'm slowly losing interest in them, ah well.
there's still a plethora are plenty of things to do in Perth.
(no, not really actually)

highlight of the day was probably seeing this.
aha, lucky (jks) poor Nathan.

ah what fond memories. (kinda)

life's pretty screwed up.
(then again, it usually is)

maybe a proper holiday now would be good hmmmmmm.
need some new songs, any suggestions? been getting pretty bored of repetitively listening to ancient old  tracks.

thoughts: fml, found my lamington. maybe time to invest in some quality earphones. headphones are a bit too bulky at times.
-8/10
(^ lol)

kthxbai. 

P.S Nat, you're posts use impeccable english, compared to my failed ones.
aha, and yeah, colourful. (well not this one)
i just thought about it and realized, you should work at a Mashimaro factory, you'd be right at home, haha.

asian dinners.

cheers for the wake-up call at 7:30 buddy. hahaha. i managed to sleep again, till called AGAIN at 8:30.

and no, baddy is sundays, 9:30-11:30 haha.

pretty boring  un-interesting day. highlight would've been finding my iPod shuffle.

well, technically my mum found it.

after it had gone through the wash.

been dried.

and almost ironed.

yeah, in stereotypical asian sense, i copped a lecture for being irresponsible >__>

ah well. day mainly spent reading Devil Bones, by Kathy Reichs, pretty interesting hahaha. Bones makes so much more sense than the book though.

picnic tomorrow yayy. (sarcasm intended) just hoping no-one brings mineral water hahaha. (dammit, i need to find cardboard to slide down the hill with .___.)

had an "family asian dinner"

Ed's a pretty cool guy, gave me some new animes and stuff hahaha.

as per usual, the dads discussed business and finance (oh joy.) and the mums discussed their children's recent achievements (none from my mum ofc.) oh man. 4 and a half hours is a longggg time D:

either way, all round ok-ish day.

im particuarly proud of the fact that no homework was achieved at all. (except me attempting to stare down my chemistry file) note: i didnt even open my file, just stared at the periodic table hahh.

my room looks super-clean right now, wouldnt expect that of a teenage guy. (then again, i probably have OCD .___. urgh)

yeah, im running out of things to say, so i leave you with a memorable quote. (well for me at least)

JJ: we're running out of chopsticks, someone'll have to eat with a fork and spoon.

Sean: who's the most white here? (looks at Aileen)

-10 seconds later-

Aileen: did you just say "who's the most white" and look at me?

BYEEEE.

Maths 3AB notes

for any poor soul, who is desperate enough (Graham) to bother googling/binging/yahoo-ing (wtf?) maths notes for 3AB maths.

yes i know my handwriting sucks. live with it.

2AB Physics sucks -.-

ok,
so this'll be my first serious non-delusional post.

seriouslyyy D: who would want to calculate: the-change-in-velocity-of-a-bullet-when-it-strikes-a-metal-plate-at-45 degrees. *note to any future physics students, know what you're getting yourself into*
zomgg
-slams book shut-
-douses in kerosene-
-sets alight-
-realizes im screwed without it-
^dammit.

the maths exam killed today.
oh well, extra time, means i got to add up and make a "rough estimate" of my marks.

68% at worst, and probably something like 85% at best >____>

arghh asian fail. (then again, asian fail is anything below 95 -.-, what is it with asians and highs standards.)

man, maybe i should be sleeping soon.
note to self: dont sleep at 4 am the night before the end of year exam.
-even if it is an afternoon exam .__.

ah well, i'll stop for now.
time to go stalk Mashima o_o"

laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

HOLY CR*P IT WORKS

AHAHA

just finished setting the sh*t stuff up.
mann, what a great substitute for fb.

whats in the box, in the box, what's in the box todayyy:

THAT'S WHERE MY HEADPHONES WENT.

anyway, this seems like lots of fun ranting.

OMG NAT WHAT DID YOU DOOOOOOOOO D: