有时候 有時候 我會相信一切有尽頭
相聚離開有有時候 没有什麽會永垂不朽
There are times, there are times when I can believe there's an end to it all,
We meet, we part, everything has a time, there's nothing immortal.
(red bean - Khalil Fong hsdjagk it's a really good song)
相聚離開有有時候 没有什麽會永垂不朽
There are times, there are times when I can believe there's an end to it all,
We meet, we part, everything has a time, there's nothing immortal.
(red bean - Khalil Fong hsdjagk it's a really good song)
Do you ever see someone online and want to die? Maybe it's their ever-so-bangin' display picture or the fact that they're really popular on facebook or the fact that you know everyone you're talking to is acting really disinterested towards you because they're talking to that person.
.'. dou suru no?
1. Study... and then sign into msn five minutes later and get even more depressed.
2. Watch tv... go back to your msn screen in the ad break and find out nobody is talking to you.
3. Watch the Big Bang theory and laugh at all of the characters because they're socially awkward and can't mix with the wider world but then you realize you're just the same and a cloud hangs over your head.
4. Take pictures of yourself. And then compare. And then delete every picture you've taken.
5. Go to sleep. Wait, it's 5:00 PM and you need to do homework.
I don't understand. Was I destined for this kind of thing? (because it always happens) Put every once of love into every person I can but remain just as lonely? Why am I so unnoticeable/average? I wonder what I did in my past life. why can't I just be... better? *sings regina spektor* (blame parents' DNA)
4 years turns into 3 years, 3 years turns into 2 years, and 2 years turns into one year. Why do I still feel the same?
6 weeks turns into 5 weeks, 5 weeks turns into 4 weeks but I still can't bring myself to study for exams because everything is just wrong.
10 hours turns into 9 hours, and 9 hours turns into 8 hours, yet the homework pile doesn't decrease.
Saturday turns into Sunday and Sunday turns into Monday, but it doesn't get better because then it's Tuesday. (-groans-)
I want fluoro orange shoes. I want to be tall. I want to be less god damned average. I want to be able to stand in a crowd of perfect, pretty asians and fit in for once. I want people to know hard it is for me to give hugs. I want a pair of Sennheiser headphones. I want to have a nice, unmanly voice. I want to be the best at something. I want to re-live the 90s. I want to be good at maths. I want to be funny. I want my asian parents to think I'm good enough. I want to be all these things I'll never be because I'm me and I can't do anything.
sho helpless.
anyway good night, internet.
and sorry Ainu people; your history is intriguing but I want to sleep now.
current thoughts: WHY DO LIT CLASSES FOR NEXT YEAR HAVE TO BE MIXED AROUND?! if I don't get my teacher again I will feel like a Taiwanese person who has just discovered they can't have bubble tea ever again.
PS: sean; you're as far as you could get from being fat.
.'. dou suru no?
1. Study... and then sign into msn five minutes later and get even more depressed.
2. Watch tv... go back to your msn screen in the ad break and find out nobody is talking to you.
3. Watch the Big Bang theory and laugh at all of the characters because they're socially awkward and can't mix with the wider world but then you realize you're just the same and a cloud hangs over your head.
4. Take pictures of yourself. And then compare. And then delete every picture you've taken.
5. Go to sleep. Wait, it's 5:00 PM and you need to do homework.
I don't understand. Was I destined for this kind of thing? (because it always happens) Put every once of love into every person I can but remain just as lonely? Why am I so unnoticeable/average? I wonder what I did in my past life. why can't I just be... better? *sings regina spektor* (blame parents' DNA)
4 years turns into 3 years, 3 years turns into 2 years, and 2 years turns into one year. Why do I still feel the same?
6 weeks turns into 5 weeks, 5 weeks turns into 4 weeks but I still can't bring myself to study for exams because everything is just wrong.
10 hours turns into 9 hours, and 9 hours turns into 8 hours, yet the homework pile doesn't decrease.
Saturday turns into Sunday and Sunday turns into Monday, but it doesn't get better because then it's Tuesday. (-groans-)
I want fluoro orange shoes. I want to be tall. I want to be less god damned average. I want to be able to stand in a crowd of perfect, pretty asians and fit in for once. I want people to know hard it is for me to give hugs. I want a pair of Sennheiser headphones. I want to have a nice, unmanly voice. I want to be the best at something. I want to re-live the 90s. I want to be good at maths. I want to be funny. I want my asian parents to think I'm good enough. I want to be all these things I'll never be because I'm me and I can't do anything.
sho helpless.
anyway good night, internet.
and sorry Ainu people; your history is intriguing but I want to sleep now.
current thoughts: WHY DO LIT CLASSES FOR NEXT YEAR HAVE TO BE MIXED AROUND?! if I don't get my teacher again I will feel like a Taiwanese person who has just discovered they can't have bubble tea ever again.
PS: sean; you're as far as you could get from being fat.
LILLY
ReplyDeleteYOU"RE PERFECT THE WAY YOU ARE.
<3
thats why i married you, deshou?
also, i totally agree. with like, everything.
ReplyDeleteESP THE BEGINNING.
-sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh-
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ReplyDelete**i don't understand why people ARE too busy to talk to you and AREN'T treating you like the most important person who ever graced their lives <3
ReplyDeletei love you just the way you are~
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