"the heart of life is good" - john mayer

recently, i think i've figured out who my real friends are and it's a really comforting feeling having a few people that i feel like i can trust with my life. (esp whaleface). and it's not just my friends at school, i am also forever grateful that i have an amazing big brother. even though he probably would never ever read this and is currently 18, 623 km away, i miss him so much and i'm happy we still skype and facebook and email and all but i feel like home is so incomplete. he used to balance me out so well and he knows me better than anyone, he was always over affectionate, even when i was always like 'blergh feelings are for losers' and forced me into suffocating hugs (invading my personal bubble) and played soft guitar songs that i could hear through the thin walls at night to help me sleep and drove me to mcdonalds at 11pm when i craved mcflurries and lied for me and stood up for me and made me noodle soup and made me listen to amazin songs and now i worry about him all the way in north carolina but i'm happy he's on his way to fulfilling all of his dreams, even though i'm not there with him.

i think family is the most important thing. but i've found that those close friends count as family too. they're just as important and always will be. i can't imagine ever losing them because they truly make everything worthwhile :3